Thank you very much for your help!
I am new to church and not really acquainted with how to approach elders or seeking help, in general, but I will keep this in mind when I attend and maybe pray for the courage to seek help via the elders when God views this as the best approach.
I really don't know how to go about doing anything without seeking God first i.e. I have never asked humanity for assistance so it will be a leap for me to learn how to do so but I am willing if it is Gods will/instruction.
Thank you!
The problem you may face here, is that of not being "a member", thus not being a sheep belonging to the flock.
Don't be discouraged by that. Anyone can become a sheep belonging to Jesus flock.
Jesus said, "I have other sheep that are not of this fold. I must bring them in as well, and they will listen to My voice. Then there will be one flock and one shepherd." John 10:16
Becoming a sheep in the flock under the shepherd Jesus Christ, begins with knowledge and understanding of what God requires, and listening to his voice by obeying. Jeremiah 7:21-28; Joshua 1:16-18
So, it would mean you need to do more than just "go to church".
You need to get to know the true knowledge, and then live by it. John 17:3; 1 Timothy 3:16
Some churched do not care about this. People just "go to church" and they aren't even known. So, nothing is known about their past or present, and so, they come and go, week after week, and that's it.
Some churches, mass baptize persons, and the same is true. The person isn't known, and neither does the person know what is even required to be a Christian. They just think they are.
That is the sad reality of Christianity of the world today.
The advice I would offer, if you really would like help... and it looks like you do... is
- Step 1. Talk with God
Pray to God specifically for help to find his sheep, where you can get the needed help and support to grow spiritually. God's will provide that help, because it is his will for all. 1 Timothy 2:3, 4 Pray regularly about this. Acts 10:1-4
- Step 2. Incline your ear to listen to God
Make a sincere effort to listen to God, who communicates to us through his word. Proverbs 28:9; 2 Timothy 3:16, 17; 1 Thessalonians 2:13; John17:17; Hebrews 4:12
Taking these steps will lead to God answering your prayer, and responding to your sincere plea for help, and he will send you the help you need. His help comes through his representatives on earth..
Acts 10:4; Acts 8:26-40; Acts 16:9, 10; Daniel 9:20-23; 2 Corinthians 5:20
- Step 3. Act in harmony with your prayers
When God sends you the help, respond to it by, listening to and receiving the message, and studying the Bible to be sure of the things you are hearing. Acts 17:11
Keep examining the scriptures daily, with prayer, and meditation, and association.
Once you have found the people of God, and become part of the flock, you will be well taken care of spiritually. They will provide you with the help mentioned a James 5:13-16.
Even if you aren't yet a part of the flock, you will be known, and you will know others.
More importantly, you will know precisely all you need to know about sin, and being saved, and anything else you need to know.
If everything I said here seems a bit "overboard", just keep studying the scriptures, as you have been doing... and praying... and try to overcome drinking too much. Luke 21:34-36