Yeah, I was pretty heavy into that stuff. 'Bout to make another post along those lines.
I make it no secret that I fell for those things...the one thing I want to do more than anything is to make people aware of how easy it is to be taken advantage of, concerning these experiences and entities. Also, I believe there needs to be more public awareness in the Christian community concerning these things. I've heard it claimed that children whose parents talk to them about drugs are 50% less likely to try them. Perhaps we would have similar results if "Satan's so-called deep mysteries" were discussed as well.
I have experienced several types of "spirits." Two were demonic. One was angelic, though "evil." One, the blonde-haired fellow here, is something not human, but seems close to the Father in some way. What the other "people" in this memory were is indescribeable. There also seems to be some type of "spirit" that is not human, but more like an animal or complex of emotions/feelings. There are even "alien" spirits (those things are *not* aliens), which seems to be a type of glorified human being. I have seen much. It is mostly all bad.
This experience however, still seems genuine. I've been out of that filth for about 4 years now, reckoned from the day I threw away my last Tarot deck. For some reason, I still continue to experience ESP, empathy/mind"reading", and out-of-body experiences. I have prayed on several occasions about these things. I told our Father that just as David said, "apart from the Lord, I will have no good thing", so would I. If this "gift", as the new-agers are so fond of calling it, were from anyone but my Lord and His Spirit, I *did not* want it. It remains.
There is something I want you to understand though, and this is done best by explaining about the "reading" that a "psychic" does. As you may well know, a true psychic reading is done with a "familiar", a spirit that can see spiritual things and reports to the "medium", (the new-ager) what it sees. You then listen to your subconscious mind to "hear" these things. This is how I *tried* to see my little visions. Well, for me now, that familiar is gone, vacated by our Lord's Spirit. All these things I still experience...they all halt at the point that spirit would have been at. It's like the line was set up, and although only my end remains, I can still pick things up by it. Hope this makes sense. So I'm not still communing with that filth, but the door doesn't shut.
As I said, I knew these things as a baby. If I was cohabited and got the memory from a fallen angel, it would had to have happened before I was even a year old. Quite possible. However, my OBEs *now* back up the image of my self in THIS memory. I have changed, but some things remain the same. The blonde-haired fellow as well appears once in a great while, in my "dreams." When I was once close to immorality, he showed up to very strongly warn me not to. He called it adultery and treason against God. That was less than a year ago. What's more, I know some of the people from this experience. One is my sister; one, her first boyfriend; one an ex-girlfriend, and one, her brother. These are the same spirits in these people as were in "heaven" with that bitter man so long ago.
I'm very interested in replies to this. I'm going to try now to set up a topic on what happened to me in Arkansas that help shake me out of the occult to begin with. If you feel you can help me or talk with me about these things, please stay around.
May this all be for God's glory.
-david
