Court,
They were okay to me at the club. They weren't mad at me for it but they kept asking if I could stay. I just couldn't my makeup looked horrid and I just couldn't stop crying and I needed air you know? I'm sorry you get them to : ( I get them when I feel really overwhelmed or scared, usually both.
Ugghh the grabbing! I work at the touchiest grabbiest club I have ever worked at in my life. I just about took this guys hand off the other day. I was talking to a costumer and this disgusting nasty old guy grabbed me from behind and I just wheeled around and almost ripped his wrist off lol. I just don't like feeling like any person can touch me I try and keep a little dignity. It's hard though certainly.
I will certainly check her website out and look into it. That sounds like a support I would be interested in. I don't like pushy type supports they usually just stress me out or turn me off. I will say a little prayer today and see how it makes me feel.
Merry Christmas to you to! I should be on before then I like talking to you to : )
Cathy,
Thank you so much! The first part of what you wrote made me tear up.
That's actually a really good idea about trusting people. It's hard for me to feel safe around people or like they don't just want to hang out with me to get with me. I didn't use to be like this I really hate it. I do know what you mean though about the trust coming. I just need to find a place where I could make some friends.
I lost 2 people I was really close friends with and after that I really started to isolate more then I tended to already in the first place. I slowly withdrew more and then I moved out here to Colorado and nobody really knew me and the phone just didn't need to ring. That's a good idea about going to Church. I have Christmas off and not a whole lot to do so I will check one out. I will look up where A Catholic church in my area is.
The future is scary for me. I use to have a plan to get out of stripping but I ended up getting to anti-social to ever put it into place. I will really start to think about what I like to do and would make money at while I have some time off.
Thanks so much Cathy!
They were okay to me at the club. They weren't mad at me for it but they kept asking if I could stay. I just couldn't my makeup looked horrid and I just couldn't stop crying and I needed air you know? I'm sorry you get them to : ( I get them when I feel really overwhelmed or scared, usually both.
Ugghh the grabbing! I work at the touchiest grabbiest club I have ever worked at in my life. I just about took this guys hand off the other day. I was talking to a costumer and this disgusting nasty old guy grabbed me from behind and I just wheeled around and almost ripped his wrist off lol. I just don't like feeling like any person can touch me I try and keep a little dignity. It's hard though certainly.
I will certainly check her website out and look into it. That sounds like a support I would be interested in. I don't like pushy type supports they usually just stress me out or turn me off. I will say a little prayer today and see how it makes me feel.
Merry Christmas to you to! I should be on before then I like talking to you to : )
Cathy,
Thank you so much! The first part of what you wrote made me tear up.
That's actually a really good idea about trusting people. It's hard for me to feel safe around people or like they don't just want to hang out with me to get with me. I didn't use to be like this I really hate it. I do know what you mean though about the trust coming. I just need to find a place where I could make some friends.
I lost 2 people I was really close friends with and after that I really started to isolate more then I tended to already in the first place. I slowly withdrew more and then I moved out here to Colorado and nobody really knew me and the phone just didn't need to ring. That's a good idea about going to Church. I have Christmas off and not a whole lot to do so I will check one out. I will look up where A Catholic church in my area is.
The future is scary for me. I use to have a plan to get out of stripping but I ended up getting to anti-social to ever put it into place. I will really start to think about what I like to do and would make money at while I have some time off.
Thanks so much Cathy!
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