Starting back Goals

[Mayflower1]

So tonight I left church early. I was in a shut down today and had covered up this morning and didnt go to church or anything. Slept until 4pm. My hubby and I ate before he went to work (he works thirds) and I went to church and cut right before it started. Then in this no care attitude I went home and cut my legs up with a razor.

Im thinking more clearly tonight. I havent had a fall like this in quite a long time. I do very well actually. But this past month after keeping sharp things out of the house for three years I put them back in. So yes I fell but Im not taking them out again. I can do this. It has just been a rough month. I talked with my friend who is also a woman pastor at my church. She helped me brainstorm and asked me a lot of questions and told me her observations. Ive decided to write goals out again. So here they are. Perhaps any of yall would like to help me be accountable too? If any of yall want to list your goals for the month also yall can write them here. This is what I have. Im unsure what to do as a goal for number three but I start counseling again December first so we can talk about it. I had done my 20 minute Bible reading project on facebook, did these goals, then posted some Psalms on this site I go to, so I am feeling much better now. I just thought I would post here too to see if this might help anyone also...I guess you dont have to stay down in a fall. I am sad by it but one thing I have learned through the years is the quicker I can get back up from it the better I feel.

 

[Zoii]

TY Lily
I just think each drop of my blood is like a rock in a pond.... it ripples so widely affecting so many people. So I have to get my mind to something that pushes through the pressure in my head and to do it proactively so it doesn't build up. So I do my journal and art n writing and collage everyday. And my parents keep me aware.

 

[Mayflower1]

Baby steps. Hard to change thinking

 

[Mayflower1]

Update: tonight I wrote out some scriptures about joy, hope, and strength for when Im feeling anxious and depressed or having self injury urges. It has been very helpful tonight. I go to counseling tomorrow. It is a new counselor so prayers please.

 

[MissRowy]

Taking small goals is a good idea. I pray your new counsellor is as understanding as your previous one. Maybe break your goals into smaller chunks. Just a suggestion.