At the end of Oct. Or beginning of Nov 22,I repented and believed in Jesus death and resurrection for my sins. I was aware that my desires had changed towards my sins and I really felt that I had faith. It faded but I thought Jesus doesn’t change so he’ll be back/is still with me. A few months later, I felt that I believed stronger that Jesus died for me. The faith in the cross was stronger still than when I first believed. The love I felt lasted about 2 or 3 weeks and was wonderful!
The thing that is unsettling me now is, I don’t feel anything of any kind (Other than feeling unsettled). It’s not that I don’t believe in God . I just can’t seem to feel either way about anything, like when a loved one dies and you can’t understand why you’re not grieving and just feel emotionally numb. I feel that I should be feeling more love to Jesus. one of the first things I came across in the bible after I repented and believed, was 1 Corinthians : 1:9 God is faithful, who has called you into fellowship with his Son, Jesus Christ our Lord. The words God is faithful brought joy and comfort in an instant! I was thinking of that and of Isaiah 40:31 But they that wait upon the LORD shall renew their strength;
I am wondering if The Lord is telling me to diligently read the bible and not wait for comfort to come upon me before I do. I am a terrible procrastinator. I often joke that I was going to procrastinate today, but I’ll wait ‘till tomorrow or another day. I hate being like that.
I am wondering if I’m being told to pursue Christ however unsettled I feel and pray more, and that that is what’s meant by “waiting on The Lord”.
The thing that is unsettling me now is, I don’t feel anything of any kind (Other than feeling unsettled). It’s not that I don’t believe in God . I just can’t seem to feel either way about anything, like when a loved one dies and you can’t understand why you’re not grieving and just feel emotionally numb. I feel that I should be feeling more love to Jesus. one of the first things I came across in the bible after I repented and believed, was 1 Corinthians : 1:9 God is faithful, who has called you into fellowship with his Son, Jesus Christ our Lord. The words God is faithful brought joy and comfort in an instant! I was thinking of that and of Isaiah 40:31 But they that wait upon the LORD shall renew their strength;
I am wondering if The Lord is telling me to diligently read the bible and not wait for comfort to come upon me before I do. I am a terrible procrastinator. I often joke that I was going to procrastinate today, but I’ll wait ‘till tomorrow or another day. I hate being like that.
I am wondering if I’m being told to pursue Christ however unsettled I feel and pray more, and that that is what’s meant by “waiting on The Lord”.