So this is my dilema
It has come to my attention recently that i have begun to have deep feelings of hate towards successful people. This isnt your normal case of the green eyed monster, i dont want anything these people have, i just want them to not have it. i will sit there sometimes and just imagine terrible things happening to these people so that they don't seem so great anymore, such as if a guy is good at sports i might imagine he fumble the ball on the last play and him getting ridiculed at for days to come and he ends up giving up his dream of professional ball because of the incident. I already know this is COMPLETELY AND UTTERLY 101% WRONG but i just get so carried away sometimes. Now its gotten to the point where i cant stand being around people in general, even those i would call my friends. I just need some help, i know that this is the same mentality that bullies and many immature and spiteful people have, and i dont want to feel this way. i have prayed for God to help me see the good in people and to see them as lost souls, but i dont feel like its enough. I feel so helpless at this point, i dont want to live life as a spiteful hateful person
It has come to my attention recently that i have begun to have deep feelings of hate towards successful people. This isnt your normal case of the green eyed monster, i dont want anything these people have, i just want them to not have it. i will sit there sometimes and just imagine terrible things happening to these people so that they don't seem so great anymore, such as if a guy is good at sports i might imagine he fumble the ball on the last play and him getting ridiculed at for days to come and he ends up giving up his dream of professional ball because of the incident. I already know this is COMPLETELY AND UTTERLY 101% WRONG but i just get so carried away sometimes. Now its gotten to the point where i cant stand being around people in general, even those i would call my friends. I just need some help, i know that this is the same mentality that bullies and many immature and spiteful people have, and i dont want to feel this way. i have prayed for God to help me see the good in people and to see them as lost souls, but i dont feel like its enough. I feel so helpless at this point, i dont want to live life as a spiteful hateful person