- Mar 26, 2020
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Hi I'm 17 years old and I have been a Christian since I was 11 years old. When I was much younger any time i sinned I felt terrible about it and would repent right away. But about when I was 15 my uncle and great grandma passed away within a one week span.I was extremely close it both of them and I started down a bad path.I found myself starting to go to the wrong side of the internet and would watch porn and do many sinful things to make myself feel better. At first I felt terrible and afterwards would still repent.But I keep doing it and as I kept doing it I would start to not feel guilty. Then I wouldn't ask for forgiveness as much and pretty soon kinda just shoved God out of my life. This continued for about another year,I was homeschooled the whole time and had a Bible class I still did and I still really loved the Lord I just was in a dark place.After about a year of this when I was 16 it hit me what I was doing. I had been making excuses in my mind that it was fine I was doing these things and when it hit me I realized how bad I was getting. I finally went to God and I truly repented for my sins asked for forgiveness I was on my knees almost in tears I felt awful for all of it and just truly was so disappointed in myself about it. Now I'm 17 and I'm back to having a really good relationship with God and I do slip up sometimes still but when I do slip up I somtisome don't feel very guilty anymore. I do still to an extent but I wish i did more until I asked for forgiveness and repented of my sins. Now I know a reason for it may be that I was in sin for so long and became numb that it may be the reason for it.But I wanted your guys opinion on it and I really appreciate everyone who respondeds to this to try and help me out,God bless all of you and have a wonderful day!
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