I have stage 4 rectal cancer. And similar to your situation, I was given a short time to live. I don't like speaking on the times doctors gives us, because that is the demon within itself to heighten your anxiety! That's not of God, that's exactly what the devil wants you to feel like. Once you start focusing on that, then it's a domino affect of issues from here on out! And it all starts in your "Mind." Being in the mind of Christ takes a complete life changing "thought" process. You ever witnessed others who we say just "gave up?" I believe that's what kills them. Our minds are so powerful, it can have grave affects on our bodies. I'm still struggling, but im also gaining more wisdom daily to deal with this disease and life in general. I said. I'm not dying. I'm not going to die, I will live forever with my Lord Jesus Christ! That's #1!!! You must implant this in your mind brother! You must! Also, when I have those "feeling down" times, I have what the Bible says a "quiet place" I go to. Doesn't sound like a place you want to be at, especially when your depressed. But, trust me on this from a Christian friend. Find you a place, inside your home or drive somewhere, with your Bible, so you can just be with you and God. Pray to him. Tell him exactly how your feeling and everything that's going on with you. Read scriptures pertaining to what your going through. The Bible increases your faith and wisdom the more time goes on. But, please find that go to place and talk to God every chance you can. You will get your answers and the anxiety will be less and less. It works every single time. I walk away comforted speaking to God and completely comforted and that's all we want. Isn't it? Not pity from others, but just comfort! God please comfort me from this situation. God will give that to you. I never thought in my life I could be surrounded by so many people and always felt totally alone! I don't know if this happens to you, but many, many times it has with me. I started changing my mindset. I told my friends and family to not look at me as though I'm dying. I'm alive! Nothing changes. I want things to remain the same. Because their body language and words make me depressed. So, I said no more. When you see me, I smile, you smile, I love you, I love you back and we continue living. Let God deal with the doctors, they are not in control. And "know" this is an attack from Satan! We have power over him through our Lord Jesus Christ and he knows this that's why he tries all that trickery. Believe in God's word as it is written: Deuteronomy 31:6-8 "Be strong and courageous, for it is the Lord your God who goes with you. He will not leave you or forsake you". Know he is always with you and he will there for you on earth and with Love in Heaven where we all belong. My heart is with you. You are going to be fine! Rebuke that Devil! He loves tricking the mind so he can suffer. HE IS A LIAR! and the best one there is! My prayers are with you brother. I hope what I said will help you deal with your disease and life in general from this day forward. Remember, your not dying. You will live forever with Christ! Love you brother! Oh, and Jesus sent the holy Spirit "the comforter" in his place to let us know we are never alone. Ask the holy Spirit to help guide you through scripture!