- Aug 31, 2017
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I guess this post might fit here since it's about family and support.
I have a very large natural family; however, my dad is a practicing occultist who is also a sadistic narcissist and must control everything. He ruined my and my three siblings' lives from birth till now with his ability to manipulate people and situations to fall in line with what he wanted. He broke up my two brothers' marriages as well as my sister's marriage and prevented me from getting married (long story but true). His siblings caught him trying to break up one of his younger brothers' marriage, so it's a real OCD for him to steal, kill, and destroy; he really must do it and cannot help himself.
Because of my dad, I have been homeless for a number of years now. Some relatives tried to help, but my dad got them to back off by telling them he was helping me when he never was. After a while, all my relatives turned their backs on me and my siblings who really needed their help, because my dad (from that side of the family) made things so hard and complex and confusing and burdensome for them that they decided it was best to just steer clear of anyone from our side of the family. In 2010, as two ministers were dropping me off at a homeless shelter, I was thinking, "I knew it. God's will for me is to live in homeless shelters." But He spoke to me right then and said that it isn't His will, giving me Ps. 68:6 behind it: "God sets the solitary in families; He brings out those who are bound into prosperity."
My mom died in February 2015 while I was still homeless in another state, and till now I've been too busy trying to survive myself to mourn her passing and never got to visit her grave. My dad also separated me from my three siblings (he isolated all of us from each other), so those are other relationships that I lost. I'm praying for a spiritual family and seeking fellowship with honest believers; but meanwhile I guess I'm stuck in this place of grief and definitely loss. Lots and lots of loss.
I have a very large natural family; however, my dad is a practicing occultist who is also a sadistic narcissist and must control everything. He ruined my and my three siblings' lives from birth till now with his ability to manipulate people and situations to fall in line with what he wanted. He broke up my two brothers' marriages as well as my sister's marriage and prevented me from getting married (long story but true). His siblings caught him trying to break up one of his younger brothers' marriage, so it's a real OCD for him to steal, kill, and destroy; he really must do it and cannot help himself.
Because of my dad, I have been homeless for a number of years now. Some relatives tried to help, but my dad got them to back off by telling them he was helping me when he never was. After a while, all my relatives turned their backs on me and my siblings who really needed their help, because my dad (from that side of the family) made things so hard and complex and confusing and burdensome for them that they decided it was best to just steer clear of anyone from our side of the family. In 2010, as two ministers were dropping me off at a homeless shelter, I was thinking, "I knew it. God's will for me is to live in homeless shelters." But He spoke to me right then and said that it isn't His will, giving me Ps. 68:6 behind it: "God sets the solitary in families; He brings out those who are bound into prosperity."
My mom died in February 2015 while I was still homeless in another state, and till now I've been too busy trying to survive myself to mourn her passing and never got to visit her grave. My dad also separated me from my three siblings (he isolated all of us from each other), so those are other relationships that I lost. I'm praying for a spiritual family and seeking fellowship with honest believers; but meanwhile I guess I'm stuck in this place of grief and definitely loss. Lots and lots of loss.