- Apr 14, 2020
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My first marriage I was a teenager and met a guy who was in college...we had a baby out of wedlock and got married. I didn't know what I had gotten myself into at all. He was verbally abusive every day, porn addict, used pot and Adderall. He degraded me everyday as I played the stay at home mother of 4 role. I acted happy but died a little more everyday. I prayed God would do something. I got involved in ministry and that made me happier but felt empty inside because the marriage was dead. He finally came to me after 12 years in a fit of rage ripped my Bible in half as I was homeschooling my kids and stated he was cheating. He told me I had to leave my christian faith or he was divorcing. I called police for my safety the drugs had him unstable. Because it was so out of hand and I took children to my mom's and filed for divorce. To my horror the court appointed a GAL who was a homosexual who hated Baptists and I was a devout evangelistic one. She decided to award him my 4 children! It was so horrific. The oldest now an atheist won't speak to me and the younger 3 come back and forth. After that nightmare was over...
I remarried a pastor thinking life was on an upward turn. We had two more children...during this process there were warning signs I missed. I needed a knight in shining armor. He turned out to have serious drug addiction to cocaine, herion and pills has left ministry work. I'm in a worse scenario than I was to begin with. Violent and verbally abusive...have seperated before... I don't understand how I deserve this or what I should do to move forward. Feeling I may have to divorce again but life destroyed. Any thoughts? I have been hoping for going on five years he would get better and it hasn't happened. Devistated.
I remarried a pastor thinking life was on an upward turn. We had two more children...during this process there were warning signs I missed. I needed a knight in shining armor. He turned out to have serious drug addiction to cocaine, herion and pills has left ministry work. I'm in a worse scenario than I was to begin with. Violent and verbally abusive...have seperated before... I don't understand how I deserve this or what I should do to move forward. Feeling I may have to divorce again but life destroyed. Any thoughts? I have been hoping for going on five years he would get better and it hasn't happened. Devistated.