Well guys, He's giving me the silent treatment again, It's been almost 20 days. We had started talking again and during one of our conversations, then he started to ponder past of all the time I was speaking foolishness about certain conspiracy theories and rambling and he started seething in rage against me again, I don't have a problem with that but it was the fact that it was unprovoked and I had taken accountability and acknowledged it yet he still felt the need to just unwind on on me. It was just needless rageful venting. I didn't get angry or raise my voice or anything, but I let a few things off my chest again and confronted him about all the cruel stuff he said and did in the past and his response was that i was cherry picking minor instances when the instances i mentioned covered such a broad and frequent span of time that I was not cherry picking and in were indicative of his general behavior. He said I was selfish because I didn't hold tongue and let him rage as usual, but he wasn't selfish for just avoiding his seething. I basically confronted him about this for 2 hours straight because i wanted to approach this from every angle to achieve clarity and understanding but he perceived this as me trying to wring some sort of apology out of him.
I just want him to full acknowledge the egotistical and rageful side of himself and just cut it out. Just like when I called him out and got angry and yelled at him for raging demonically at me over the videogame and gave me silent treatment, i responded to his unprovoked rage against which comes from the same place and now im getting the silent treatment again and for who knows how long, perhaps months. I don't want to endure this quietly anymore. Part of me wants to just let go and move on like i did when he gave me 3 months of silent treatment before.
I don't want to block him because I do believe that if i handled these situations with more discipline and self control perhaps really would change and part of me wants to double down address the silent treatment in a non-angry or hostile way, very thoroughly and maybe explain to him that he is infact being narcissistic by repeating a pattern of giving me silent treatment every time i stand up to him and further elaborate internally on why i react the way i do to his hostility and perhaps he can help me work through it,, Full complete transparency. In this case, I suspect he'll either ignore that, respond dismissively and change the topic, block me because I'm a wicked selfish demon that won't take full accountability for the situation and ALL THE SITUATIONS in which he's punked me off and yelled at me and not stoically enduring his rage like a saint despite him not just doing that himself (What's easier? Nothing seething out of the blue for my unwise rambling of conspiracy theories or enduring someone's belligerent attitude endlessly) , or hopefully he will respond organically and productively in a way where we can come to solution. Alternatively, I could just completely let go and move on but again, I think he'll just end up reaching out to me after a few months and I don't have it in me to just cut him out of my life because I truly cannot determine if he is truly a demonic bad influence or just some guy god sent me to whip into submission so i fully follow god's will.
I just want him to full acknowledge the egotistical and rageful side of himself and just cut it out. Just like when I called him out and got angry and yelled at him for raging demonically at me over the videogame and gave me silent treatment, i responded to his unprovoked rage against which comes from the same place and now im getting the silent treatment again and for who knows how long, perhaps months. I don't want to endure this quietly anymore. Part of me wants to just let go and move on like i did when he gave me 3 months of silent treatment before.
I don't want to block him because I do believe that if i handled these situations with more discipline and self control perhaps really would change and part of me wants to double down address the silent treatment in a non-angry or hostile way, very thoroughly and maybe explain to him that he is infact being narcissistic by repeating a pattern of giving me silent treatment every time i stand up to him and further elaborate internally on why i react the way i do to his hostility and perhaps he can help me work through it,, Full complete transparency. In this case, I suspect he'll either ignore that, respond dismissively and change the topic, block me because I'm a wicked selfish demon that won't take full accountability for the situation and ALL THE SITUATIONS in which he's punked me off and yelled at me and not stoically enduring his rage like a saint despite him not just doing that himself (What's easier? Nothing seething out of the blue for my unwise rambling of conspiracy theories or enduring someone's belligerent attitude endlessly) , or hopefully he will respond organically and productively in a way where we can come to solution. Alternatively, I could just completely let go and move on but again, I think he'll just end up reaching out to me after a few months and I don't have it in me to just cut him out of my life because I truly cannot determine if he is truly a demonic bad influence or just some guy god sent me to whip into submission so i fully follow god's will.
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