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I lost all hope one day in everything and everyone. I had depression and my mind just broke under the pressure I guess. So the depression, according to my doctor, caused psychosis and panic attacks
People cast me out and i was a slave to sin and i had no idea how to escape it. I saw no God in myself because of my sin and I lost hope. I stopped taking medication That's when my deep psychosis started. I remember it well. I thought i heard God speak to me and maybe he did but I soon would sink into psychosis and stay there for a couple or few months. I was in bed most of the time. I wasn't sick physically just mentally.
Anyway I experienced many things and it got so bad that I had to get back on medication. Social media was terrible for me. I got off of Facebook and i had instant relief from my torture. The doctor said that depression caused it and that took a weight off my shoulders too because i was blaming myself as if I were cursed. And the medication helped.
But the interesting part is after this experience was over I was freed from my sin. God picked me up, gave me strength and a heart to resist temptation. During my psychosis episode i prayed that God free me from my sin so that i would know that he was with me and that he didn't forsake me too. He answered that prayer. Praise the Lord. I still need medication I guess but it's ok. I have so much joy, peace and love inside my heart. And I'm free.
People cast me out and i was a slave to sin and i had no idea how to escape it. I saw no God in myself because of my sin and I lost hope. I stopped taking medication That's when my deep psychosis started. I remember it well. I thought i heard God speak to me and maybe he did but I soon would sink into psychosis and stay there for a couple or few months. I was in bed most of the time. I wasn't sick physically just mentally.
Anyway I experienced many things and it got so bad that I had to get back on medication. Social media was terrible for me. I got off of Facebook and i had instant relief from my torture. The doctor said that depression caused it and that took a weight off my shoulders too because i was blaming myself as if I were cursed. And the medication helped.
But the interesting part is after this experience was over I was freed from my sin. God picked me up, gave me strength and a heart to resist temptation. During my psychosis episode i prayed that God free me from my sin so that i would know that he was with me and that he didn't forsake me too. He answered that prayer. Praise the Lord. I still need medication I guess but it's ok. I have so much joy, peace and love inside my heart. And I'm free.