My testimony

[soldier of light]

I lost all hope one day in everything and everyone. I had depression and my mind just broke under the pressure I guess. So the depression, according to my doctor, caused psychosis and panic attacks

People cast me out and i was a slave to sin and i had no idea how to escape it. I saw no God in myself because of my sin and I lost hope. I stopped taking medication That's when my deep psychosis started. I remember it well. I thought i heard God speak to me and maybe he did but I soon would sink into psychosis and stay there for a couple or few months. I was in bed most of the time. I wasn't sick physically just mentally.

Anyway I experienced many things and it got so bad that I had to get back on medication. Social media was terrible for me. I got off of Facebook and i had instant relief from my torture. The doctor said that depression caused it and that took a weight off my shoulders too because i was blaming myself as if I were cursed. And the medication helped.

But the interesting part is after this experience was over I was freed from my sin. God picked me up, gave me strength and a heart to resist temptation. During my psychosis episode i prayed that God free me from my sin so that i would know that he was with me and that he didn't forsake me too. He answered that prayer. Praise the Lord. I still need medication I guess but it's ok. I have so much joy, peace and love inside my heart. And I'm free.

 

[Johan2222]

I lost all hope one day in everything and everyone. I had depression and my mind just broke under the pressure I guess. So the depression, according to my doctor, caused psychosis and panic attacks

People cast me out and i was a slave to sin and i had no idea how to escape it. I saw no God in myself because of my sin and I lost hope. I stopped taking medication That's when my deep psychosis started. I remember it well. I thought i heard God speak to me and maybe he did but I soon would sink into psychosis and stay there for a couple or few months. I was in bed most of the time. I wasn't sick physically just mentally.

Anyway I experienced many things and it got so bad that I had to get back on medication. Social media was terrible for me. I got off of Facebook and i had instant relief from my torture. The doctor said that depression caused it and that took a weight off my shoulders too because i was blaming myself as if I were cursed. And the medication helped.

But the interesting part is after this experience was over I was freed from my sin. God picked me up, gave me strength and a heart to resist temptation. During my psychosis episode i prayed that God free me from my sin so that i would know that he was with me and that he didn't forsake me too. He answered that prayer. Praise the Lord. I still need medication I guess but it's ok. I have so much joy, peace and love inside my heart. And I'm free.

May I ask what medication that you need and why you need it and what the result is if you don’t take it?

 

[soldier of light]

May I ask what medication that you need and why you need it and what the result is if you don’t take it?

Why?

 

[soldier of light]

May I ask what medication that you need and why you need it and what the result is if you don’t take it?

Forgive me. I take Olanzopine and sertraline. I'm not sure what would happen if I stopped taking it. I'm new to this so I'm trying to understand. I know I have so much joy inside and I dont believe the lack of medication can stop that. But I hear voices and I have anxiety attacks. I see no reason to quit taking meds. I'm not in a delusion, im just stuck with voices and anxiety attacks

 

[soldier of light]

I am free from sin. The voices are just an annoyance. I like this video. It makes me shed a tear.

 

[soldier of light]

I can do all things in Christ who strengthens me.

 

[soldier of light]

Basically I have peace, love and joy but sometimes I have anxiety attacks and voices in my head. I believe that sometimes the voices are just my own thoughts. But I can't say if always that way. It could also be like thorn in my flesh for all I know. I dont have all the answers and I walk by faith not by sight.