Confession, repentance, what to confess and how?

[LaundrySoap]

This has been addressed in previous threads but I'm sick to my stomach with anxiety right now and I need help.

Asking God for forgiveness when I wouldn't go back and change what I did if I could?

Example: I told a half-lie to my boyfriend; I did something, minor, that seemed like a minor accident, but it was on purpose. I felt horrible immediately after, and I apologized, and that was that. But the way the incident happened, it seemed like an accident. I recently read in a book that if...

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I detailed more here about what's going on, but basically: I didn't confess the bad thoughts/intentions I had when doing something wrong (even though the Something was minor). I just would feel bad immediately and say "I'm sorry for X, can I fix it, are you OK."

But leaving out my bad intentions and letting people think my actions were an accident is lying by omission, isn't it? And I hate the thought of a lie, and I want to repent of this, but at the same time, am I required to dredge up every instance and go confess to people? Am I required to give an in depth detailing of my terrible thoughts if something minor happens again? How do I repent and turn back to God if I wouldn't go back in time and confess my horrible thoughts to people if given the chance to re do it?

 

[Mari17]

This has been addressed in previous threads but I'm sick to my stomach with anxiety right now and I need help.

Asking God for forgiveness when I wouldn't go back and change what I did if I could?

Example: I told a half-lie to my boyfriend; I did something, minor, that seemed like a minor accident, but it was on purpose. I felt horrible immediately after, and I apologized, and that was that. But the way the incident happened, it seemed like an accident. I recently read in a book that if...

www.christianforums.com

I detailed more here about what's going on, but basically: I didn't confess the bad thoughts/intentions I had when doing something wrong (even though the Something was minor). I just would feel bad immediately and say "I'm sorry for X, can I fix it, are you OK."

But leaving out my bad intentions and letting people think my actions were an accident is lying by omission, isn't it? And I hate the thought of a lie, and I want to repent of this, but at the same time, am I required to dredge up every instance and go confess to people? Am I required to give an in depth detailing of my terrible thoughts if something minor happens again? How do I repent and turn back to God if I wouldn't go back in time and confess my horrible thoughts to people if given the chance to re do it?

This definitely sounds like OCD. Have you read EtainSkirata's posts? It sounds like she is dealing with a very similar issue.

 

[Tolworth John]

Am I required to give an in depth detailing of my terrible thoughts if something minor happens again? How do I repent and turn back to God if I wouldn't go back in time and confess my horrible thoughts to people if given the chance to re do it?

I think yuou need to work out are you being affected by intrusive thoughts accusing you of wrong doing or are you actually deliberatly doing things to hurt people?

You suffer from OCD and one known problem is religious scrupulity, where Every little thing becomes of major importance.

If this is you then you need far more help than can be provided o a forum.

 

[Mari17]

How have you been doing lately, LaundrySoap?

 

[revived in Christ]

Hi there! Sorry to highjack this post but should we go back and confess our sins to our loved ones?