Blasphemous thoughts against the Holy Spirit

[David Uliah]

I am 20 years old now. I have struggled with blasphemous thoughts against the Spirit of Grace for most of my childhood. It all started when I read the chapter in Matthew where our Lord Jesus said that blaspheming the Holy Spirit is unforgivable. Ever since then I have struggled against these horrible blasphemous thoughts. I want these thoughts to stop. I do not like them. I struggled alone with them for years until recently I told my mother about it. We prayed, she took me to a pastor at our church to pray for me. Nothing changed. I still have these thoughts. I myself have prayed. Nothing changed. I need deliverance from these thoughts. It feels like I am constantly walking on a thin rope. I need to be free. It has gotten the point now where I believe that I am thinking these thoughts willfully. It feels like I want to think them. Like done compulsively. Please pray for me. This fear is eating me up. I don't want to go to hell for all eternity for blaspheming the Holy Spirit. I do not hate the Holy Spirit but I still find myself thinking these horrible thoughts.

 

[Tolworth John]

I am 20 years old now. I have struggled with blasphemous thoughts against the Spirit of Grace for most of my childhood. It all started when I read the chapter in Matthew where our Lord Jesus said that blaspheming the Holy Spirit is unforgivable. Ever since then I have struggled against these horrible blasphemous thoughts. I want these thoughts to stop. I do not like them. I struggled alone with them for years until recently I told my mother about it. We prayed, she took me to a pastor at our church to pray for me. Nothing changed. I still have these thoughts. I myself have prayed. Nothing changed. I need deliverance from these thoughts. It feels like I am constantly walking on a thin rope. I need to be free. It has gotten the point now where I believe that I am thinking these thoughts willfully. It feels like I want to think them. Like done compulsively. Please pray for me. This fear is eating me up. I don't want to go to hell for all eternity for blaspheming the Holy Spirit. I do not hate the Holy Spirit but I still find myself thinking these horrible thoughts.

I am sorry you are distressed by these blasphous thought.

Please look at this free site:-
25 Tips for Succeeding in Your OCD Treatment - International OCD Foundation

Particularly point 4.

It say just acknowledge intrusive thoughts and move on.

 

[Maria Billingsley]

I am 20 years old now. I have struggled with blasphemous thoughts against the Spirit of Grace for most of my childhood. It all started when I read the chapter in Matthew where our Lord Jesus said that blaspheming the Holy Spirit is unforgivable. Ever since then I have struggled against these horrible blasphemous thoughts. I want these thoughts to stop. I do not like them. I struggled alone with them for years until recently I told my mother about it. We prayed, she took me to a pastor at our church to pray for me. Nothing changed. I still have these thoughts. I myself have prayed. Nothing changed. I need deliverance from these thoughts. It feels like I am constantly walking on a thin rope. I need to be free. It has gotten the point now where I believe that I am thinking these thoughts willfully. It feels like I want to think them. Like done compulsively. Please pray for me. This fear is eating me up. I don't want to go to hell for all eternity for blaspheming the Holy Spirit. I do not hate the Holy Spirit but I still find myself thinking these horrible thoughts.

Welcome to CF. I suspect you do not know what blaspheming the Holy Spirit means. It is disrespect. If you believe in Jesus Christ of Nazareth then He has made His Home in you through His Holy Spirit. Start with your first love Christ. You may be "quenching Him" rather than blaspheming Him. I'll pray for a deeper truthful understanding of your Savior, as the spirit of unbelief is the only thing that is blasphemous.

 

[sandman]

I am 20 years old now. I have struggled with blasphemous thoughts against the Spirit of Grace for most of my childhood. It all started when I read the chapter in Matthew where our Lord Jesus said that blaspheming the Holy Spirit is unforgivable. Ever since then I have struggled against these horrible blasphemous thoughts. I want these thoughts to stop. I do not like them. I struggled alone with them for years until recently I told my mother about it. We prayed, she took me to a pastor at our church to pray for me. Nothing changed. I still have these thoughts. I myself have prayed. Nothing changed. I need deliverance from these thoughts. It feels like I am constantly walking on a thin rope. I need to be free. It has gotten the point now where I believe that I am thinking these thoughts willfully. It feels like I want to think them. Like done compulsively. Please pray for me. This fear is eating me up. I don't want to go to hell for all eternity for blaspheming the Holy Spirit. I do not hate the Holy Spirit but I still find myself thinking these horrible thoughts.

You’re not alone …many Christians go through this and it can be crippling …. The good news …actually two good news’s

If you have accepted Jesus Christ as your Lord and Savior …you can’t commit the unforgivable sin ….and, just the fact that you are concerned about this, absolutely tells me you haven’t or won’t…

There is an unforgivable sin. But in order to commit such …you have to “not” be born again “and” it is a willful decision and willful commitment made with full knowledge if what you are doing…there is no accidently committing such, or mistakenly doing so, even with thoughts in your head….it doesn’t work that way.

 

[SarahsKnight]

Please pray for me. This fear is eating me up. I don't want to go to hell for all eternity for blaspheming the Holy Spirit. I do not hate the Holy Spirit but I still find myself thinking these horrible thoughts.

I pray that the good Lord will take away these thoughts for you and ease your fears. Surely He knows that these thoughts are not the real you, David. Please try to remember in the midst of your torments by these bad thoughts, that God is for you, and not against you. I know this kind of OCD is so hard to deal with, but hang in there.

 

[Joined2krist]

Do not acknowledge those thoughts. How can you acknowledge thoughts that insult God?. God is all knowing, He knows the enemy's tricks. Ignore the thoughts because you know that God knows they are not yours.

 

[FutureAndAHope]

I am 20 years old now. I have struggled with blasphemous thoughts against the Spirit of Grace for most of my childhood. It all started when I read the chapter in Matthew where our Lord Jesus said that blaspheming the Holy Spirit is unforgivable. Ever since then I have struggled against these horrible blasphemous thoughts. I want these thoughts to stop. I do not like them. I struggled alone with them for years until recently I told my mother about it. We prayed, she took me to a pastor at our church to pray for me. Nothing changed. I still have these thoughts. I myself have prayed. Nothing changed. I need deliverance from these thoughts. It feels like I am constantly walking on a thin rope. I need to be free. It has gotten the point now where I believe that I am thinking these thoughts willfully. It feels like I want to think them. Like done compulsively. Please pray for me. This fear is eating me up. I don't want to go to hell for all eternity for blaspheming the Holy Spirit. I do not hate the Holy Spirit but I still find myself thinking these horrible thoughts.

The fact is the thoughts do not originate with you. They come from your enemy, he knows that you are worried about committing the unforgivable sin, so he bombards you with thoughts to try to get you to act in a way that will make you feel you can not return to God. The fact is he knows that if you begin to think you are "wanting the thoughts", he can make you feel condemned, and unforgiven.

But first, we need to address the unforgivable sin, it is not thinking, or even saying something blasphemous against the Holy Spirit. That is forgivable. What the Pharisees were doing in that passage was to see all of Jesus's miracles, and in a hard heart call him a devil rather than move toward repentance.

The cross actually spans our whole lifetime.

Heb 9:27-28 And as it is appointed for men to die once, but after this the judgment, so Christ was offered once to bear the sins of many.

The cross is given for our lifetime of errors. Sure we should not try to sin, or use grace as an excuse to sin. But all of our sins are covered, even any blasphemous thoughts you may be having.

 

[David Uliah]

I would just like to take this opportunity to thank each and everyone of you who have responded to this. It's not easy living with these thoughts and the fear of eternal damnation that comes as a result of them however I thank you all for the reassurement. God bless you all.

 

[Mari17]

I would just like to take this opportunity to thank each and everyone of you who have responded to this. It's not easy living with these thoughts and the fear of eternal damnation that comes as a result of them however I thank you all for the reassurement. God bless you all.

This is actually a very very common obsession among Christians with OCD. I would like to suggest some resources, and I'm also willing to talk more about treating this kind of obsession, if you would like. Please check out the links below:
OCD & CHRISTIANITY – CHRISTIANITY (Please also check out the blog posts, some of which address your particular type of obsession.)
Christianity and Anxiety Disorders - Let's Talk | Facebook (A private Facebook group, but you can join by submitting a request and answering the screening questions.)
The book "Strivings Within: The OCD Christian" by Mitzi VanCleve, and her blog: The OCD Christian (She is also the moderator of the Facebook group I linked to; I'm a member of the group and have found it very helpful.)
The book "Breaking Free of OCD: My Battle With Mental Pain and How God Rescued Me" by Jeff Wells.

Let me know if you have any questions, need to talk, or would like more links!

 

[PhillipInCalifornia]

David, I've been there, too. I'm in my 50s, but dealt with the same thing as you in my teens. It's pure torture, but it's a lie. My suggestion is that you start volunteering your time somewhere. Help at an old folks home, or visit people who are in hospice. That is how living the Kingdom of God looks. Start doing that, giving to people who need help, and the Lord will keep you so busy with that, that you won't worry so much about blasphemy. A good song to listen to is "Holy Spirit" by Francesca Battistelli. It will help. David, we are all in this together. We are one big family. We hurt together when you hurt. We are here for you. You are going to be okay even though it doesn't feel like it. You have accepted Christ, so you will be part of the Kingdom of God when your time is up. That's true no matter what crazy thoughts run through your head. Also, read John 6:37, which says, “All that the Father gives me will come to me, and whoever comes to me I will never cast out.” If you have come to Christ, he will "never" cast you out. As in, never. There is no asterisk next to that verse. Lean on this verse even when you feel rejected.

 

[Purge187]

This plagued me for a while as well until I realized something: God knows what our true natures are and that our thoughts don't always reflect those natures.

The presence of a problem doesn't always mean the absence of God.

 

[Tranquil Bondservant]

I am 20 years old now. I have struggled with blasphemous thoughts against the Spirit of Grace for most of my childhood. It all started when I read the chapter in Matthew where our Lord Jesus said that blaspheming the Holy Spirit is unforgivable. Ever since then I have struggled against these horrible blasphemous thoughts. I want these thoughts to stop. I do not like them. I struggled alone with them for years until recently I told my mother about it. We prayed, she took me to a pastor at our church to pray for me. Nothing changed. I still have these thoughts. I myself have prayed. Nothing changed. I need deliverance from these thoughts. It feels like I am constantly walking on a thin rope. I need to be free. It has gotten the point now where I believe that I am thinking these thoughts willfully. It feels like I want to think them. Like done compulsively. Please pray for me. This fear is eating me up. I don't want to go to hell for all eternity for blaspheming the Holy Spirit. I do not hate the Holy Spirit but I still find myself thinking these horrible thoughts.

If you're worried about blaspheming The Holy Spirit, you haven't blasphemed The Holy Spirit. Thoughts & temptations are not sin unless you willingly agree, desire & encourage them. Sin becomes sin when those thoughts turn into an action, whether that action be the willing thought of thinking these things or the willing action of acting them out. To be tempted is not to sin, to sin is to act upon that temptation which is inherently contrary to God.

The blasphemy of The Holy Spirit is the thing that the pharisees committed by calling the works of God the works of the devil. To prove this read Matthew 12:22-30. Those who reject The Son of God blaspheme The Holy Spirit.

I have OCD too, I got mine from PTSD as a lot of people do. Remember that people are judged by their deeds, not by their thoughts. Your flesh is inherently hostile to God and produces inclinations in keeping with that fact. Trust not in your works/deeds but in the works of The One who saved you. You're saved by grace, through faith. As we're all saved by works, just not ours .

God bless

Edit: Corrected phrasing & added last sentence

 

[Mia Asa]

I am 20 years old now. I have struggled with blasphemous thoughts against the Spirit of Grace for most of my childhood. It all started when I read the chapter in Matthew where our Lord Jesus said that blaspheming the Holy Spirit is unforgivable. Ever since then I have struggled against these horrible blasphemous thoughts. I want these thoughts to stop. I do not like them. I struggled alone with them for years until recently I told my mother about it. We prayed, she took me to a pastor at our church to pray for me. Nothing changed. I still have these thoughts. I myself have prayed. Nothing changed. I need deliverance from these thoughts. It feels like I am constantly walking on a thin rope. I need to be free. It has gotten the point now where I believe that I am thinking these thoughts willfully. It feels like I want to think them. Like done compulsively. Please pray for me. This fear is eating me up. I don't want to go to hell for all eternity for blaspheming the Holy Spirit. I do not hate the Holy Spirit but I still find myself thinking these horrible thoughts.

Hi, I have struggled with these thoughts too and makes me anxiety. There no days when i can't think about it. Cause i afraid to be rejected by Lord. I prayed so much to God and Jesus and no answers too. But i keep hope then they never leave. I mean satan wan't your peace ,he want destroy your mind and kill you. You are safe in our Lord ,you given heart and you believe you are saved. I will pray for your soul and for myself. If i could i would to hug you cause i feel same thoughts. God never leave us.

 

[Enahs4Him]

I have struggled with this my whole Christian walk, but through God's Grace I have been able to overcome and see the light at the end of tunnel. The enemy knows what your fears are and he will play on that. The very fact that you are bothered by these blasphemous thoughts is evidence they are not your thoughts. You have to realize we are in a spiritual warfare against the powers of darkness. The only way to overcome is through total faith in Christ Jesus. Jesus was also warning people who were working against Him. Are you actively working against him? NO. You are wanting to serve and love Jesus! Jesus in in infinite wisdom knew people would struggle with this. That's why he states "He who comes to me, I will no wise cast out". If you go to Jesus , He will NEVER reject you! He's rooting for you! Be encourgaged. You are not alone. Many of us have walked in your shoes. Jesus loves you and He wants a relationship with you!

 

[PhillipInCalifornia]

I am 20 years old now. I have struggled with blasphemous thoughts against the Spirit of Grace for most of my childhood. It all started when I read the chapter in Matthew where our Lord Jesus said that blaspheming the Holy Spirit is unforgivable. Ever since then I have struggled against these horrible blasphemous thoughts. I want these thoughts to stop. I do not like them. I struggled alone with them for years until recently I told my mother about it. We prayed, she took me to a pastor at our church to pray for me. Nothing changed. I still have these thoughts. I myself have prayed. Nothing changed. I need deliverance from these thoughts. It feels like I am constantly walking on a thin rope. I need to be free. It has gotten the point now where I believe that I am thinking these thoughts willfully. It feels like I want to think them. Like done compulsively. Please pray for me. This fear is eating me up. I don't want to go to hell for all eternity for blaspheming the Holy Spirit. I do not hate the Holy Spirit but I still find myself thinking these horrible thoughts.

David, we are all here for you. The fact that you care shows that these thoughts are not yours. However, it's still difficult. An absolutely fantastic book that will IMMENSELY help you is "Strivings Within - The OCD Christian: Overcoming Doubt in the Storm of Anxiety" by Mitzi VanCleve. I cannot even begin to describe how much this book helped me with my spiritual torture. Get it and read it.

 

[Mari17]

An article that might be helpful: Have I Committed the Unpardonable Sin? - Scrupulosity.com

 

[Karabear10]

I am 20 years old now. I have struggled with blasphemous thoughts against the Spirit of Grace for most of my childhood. It all started when I read the chapter in Matthew where our Lord Jesus said that blaspheming the Holy Spirit is unforgivable. Ever since then I have struggled against these horrible blasphemous thoughts. I want these thoughts to stop. I do not like them. I struggled alone with them for years until recently I told my mother about it. We prayed, she took me to a pastor at our church to pray for me. Nothing changed. I still have these thoughts. I myself have prayed. Nothing changed. I need deliverance from these thoughts. It feels like I am constantly walking on a thin rope. I need to be free. It has gotten the point now where I believe that I am thinking these thoughts willfully. It feels like I want to think them. Like done compulsively. Please pray for me. This fear is eating me up. I don't want to go to hell for all eternity for blaspheming the Holy Spirit. I do not hate the Holy Spirit but I still find myself thinking these horrible thoughts.

I am so sorry you are struggling with this. I battle with terrible ocd thoughts as well. Mine are a bit different but I understand what you are explaining 100%. I prayed for you and if you wanna talk about this more you can chat with me!

 

[PhillipInCalifornia]

I am so sorry you are struggling with this. I battle with terrible ocd thoughts as well. Mine are a bit different but I understand what you are explaining 100%. I prayed for you and if you wanna talk about this more you can chat with me!

David,
I'm in my 50s. When I was in my teens and early 20s, my spiritual life was torture. I always worried about stuff like this. When I read your post about wanting these thoughts to go away, I thought about Jesus praying in the garden, asking God if there was any other way, could he take the path of the cross away. Ultimately, he had to walk that path. Don't think that just because you are on a difficult path that God hasn't prepared it for you. When I read in between the lines of your post, I see a young man who truly loves Jesus but is stuck in a spiral that he doesn't know how to get out of. Jesus knows you love him, and you want to be right, but you're stuck. You almost certainly suffer from scrupulosity, which is when people with OCD have a hyper fixation with religious issues. My scrupulosity reappeared this year and I went searching for answers. I found a book that was IMMENSELY helpful to me. Get it and read it today. The book is called, "Strivings Within - The OCD Christian: Overcoming Doubt in the Storm of Anxiety" by Mitzi VanCleven. Words cannot express what this book has meant to me. It dealt exactly with the same issues you dealt with and provided such help. Also, there's a fabulous Facebook page for Christians who suffered OCD, doubt, and torture in their thoughts. It has been so helpful to me. The page is called "Christianity and Anxiety Disorders - Let's Talk." The page is very interactive, with people regular posting thoughts and comments. Hope this helps. I'm going to pray for you.

 

[Job405]

I am 20 years old now. I have struggled with blasphemous thoughts against the Spirit of Grace for most of my childhood. It all started when I read the chapter in Matthew where our Lord Jesus said that blaspheming the Holy Spirit is unforgivable. Ever since then I have struggled against these horrible blasphemous thoughts. I want these thoughts to stop. I do not like them. I struggled alone with them for years until recently I told my mother about it. We prayed, she took me to a pastor at our church to pray for me. Nothing changed. I still have these thoughts. I myself have prayed. Nothing changed. I need deliverance from these thoughts. It feels like I am constantly walking on a thin rope. I need to be free. It has gotten the point now where I believe that I am thinking these thoughts willfully. It feels like I want to think them. Like done compulsively. Please pray for me. This fear is eating me up. I don't want to go to hell for all eternity for blaspheming the Holy Spirit. I do not hate the Holy Spirit but I still find myself thinking these horrible thoughts.

I have a similar problem for the past 3 years now. It hasn't gotten easier over time. I now have thoughts of worshipping the beast, another unforgivable sin. It's almost unbearable.