(possible trigger warning)
While crying my eyes out in despair i just told God to give up on me, i said im not good enough. i know everyone here will say "nobody is good enough" and say things of the sort. Meanwhile i read the bible and cant find grace and if i do the joy is short lived before im bombarded by demands, expectations, and things that sound like "better not do that", "true believers are perfect".
im just not good enough. I feel like hes up there yelling all the time "no you idiot" "thats what you get" "should have been better". i feel like im going to see him someday and hes going to say lazy coward depart from me
I have NO IDEA how people find hope in the bible besides a few verses they sometimes take out of context. meanwhile every verse that can possibly sound condemning just repeats all day long in my mind
Why am i not good enough for God? Why wont he help me? I thought he loved me...
(on top of it my church is preaching on James right now.....WONDERFUL!!!!)
While crying my eyes out in despair i just told God to give up on me, i said im not good enough. i know everyone here will say "nobody is good enough" and say things of the sort. Meanwhile i read the bible and cant find grace and if i do the joy is short lived before im bombarded by demands, expectations, and things that sound like "better not do that", "true believers are perfect".
im just not good enough. I feel like hes up there yelling all the time "no you idiot" "thats what you get" "should have been better". i feel like im going to see him someday and hes going to say lazy coward depart from me
I have NO IDEA how people find hope in the bible besides a few verses they sometimes take out of context. meanwhile every verse that can possibly sound condemning just repeats all day long in my mind
Why am i not good enough for God? Why wont he help me? I thought he loved me...
(on top of it my church is preaching on James right now.....WONDERFUL!!!!)