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swimmase
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I feel as though Im floating, rising up toward a surface that I cant see but I know its there. Sounds permeate my ears as I continue to rise. Theres a sound like seatbelt buckles constantly being fastened and unfastened, like a whole airplane full of people getting up at once. Theres a hard metal versus plastic sound, not unlike that of one of those buckles hitting something. And there are voices some urgent and loud, others quieter, but speaking very quickly.
        As I continue to fight my way up, I hear one voice above all the rest, calling out to me repeatedly, as if nothing were more important than the sound of my name, or maybe that I hear my name. I strain against the blackness that was holding me before. I see light above me, and I begin to feel my body. Im lying on my back. I can sense commotion all around me, but I cant see well enough to discern it. I try to sit up to see what is going on, but I cant. I feel my muscles trying to respond, but my limbs arent moving. With horror I realize that I am strapped down. Panic sets in and I try to thrash about in an effort to be free, but it is to no avail. I try to scream, but my throat is clogged; I cant even breathe!
        The voices around me get louder; apparently my commotion has aroused their attention, whoever they are. All of the sudden I feel something being ripped from my throat and out my mouth. I can breathe! I try to take a huge breath, but I choke on something. As I cough, I feel hands turn my head to the side, and I spit out what Im choking on. The taste of blood fills my mouth. My eyes reluctantly begin to focus and I can make out a light above me, recessed into a smooth vanilla colored ceiling. Suddenly a face replaces the light, and I realize this is the face that is constantly calling my name. Once again I try in vain to move away from this place but my efforts are futile. The face is trying more urgently to get my attention.
        Just calm down and youll be ok! Just calm down! the face says.
        The room that Im in begins to move and shudder. I hear the sound of an engine. Im in a car? I try to speak to the face, to find out whats going on but the words wont come out. Finally my guttural noises take form, and I realize Ive been speaking words the whole time I was trying to ask what was going on. My mind deciphers the question Ive been repeatedly asking:
        Are my precepts alright? is what Im saying over and over. Precepts? What are precepts? Whats going on? The face is trying to talk to me, something about an accident and a car. I try to force my brain to remember what happened to me last, before I wound up here, wherever here is. If I was in a car accident, I must have been driving. Was I driving? I cant remember driving. As I try to make my mind work, I feel the darkness closing in around me again. I hear a new noise in the background, a rhythmic thump-thump-thump as I fall back away from the world.
        As I continue to fight my way up, I hear one voice above all the rest, calling out to me repeatedly, as if nothing were more important than the sound of my name, or maybe that I hear my name. I strain against the blackness that was holding me before. I see light above me, and I begin to feel my body. Im lying on my back. I can sense commotion all around me, but I cant see well enough to discern it. I try to sit up to see what is going on, but I cant. I feel my muscles trying to respond, but my limbs arent moving. With horror I realize that I am strapped down. Panic sets in and I try to thrash about in an effort to be free, but it is to no avail. I try to scream, but my throat is clogged; I cant even breathe!
        The voices around me get louder; apparently my commotion has aroused their attention, whoever they are. All of the sudden I feel something being ripped from my throat and out my mouth. I can breathe! I try to take a huge breath, but I choke on something. As I cough, I feel hands turn my head to the side, and I spit out what Im choking on. The taste of blood fills my mouth. My eyes reluctantly begin to focus and I can make out a light above me, recessed into a smooth vanilla colored ceiling. Suddenly a face replaces the light, and I realize this is the face that is constantly calling my name. Once again I try in vain to move away from this place but my efforts are futile. The face is trying more urgently to get my attention.
        Just calm down and youll be ok! Just calm down! the face says.
        The room that Im in begins to move and shudder. I hear the sound of an engine. Im in a car? I try to speak to the face, to find out whats going on but the words wont come out. Finally my guttural noises take form, and I realize Ive been speaking words the whole time I was trying to ask what was going on. My mind deciphers the question Ive been repeatedly asking:
        Are my precepts alright? is what Im saying over and over. Precepts? What are precepts? Whats going on? The face is trying to talk to me, something about an accident and a car. I try to force my brain to remember what happened to me last, before I wound up here, wherever here is. If I was in a car accident, I must have been driving. Was I driving? I cant remember driving. As I try to make my mind work, I feel the darkness closing in around me again. I hear a new noise in the background, a rhythmic thump-thump-thump as I fall back away from the world.