Hi,
So, a little over a month ago I had surgery and had a pacemaker implanted. I have a condition called sinus node disease, where the sinus node of my heart - the hearts natural pacemaker - is broken. My heart stopped at least twice before they realized this was happening... I guess, the reason I'm posting is because I'm kind of hoping someone else has gone through something similar. I am struggling with the idea that we are all wonderfully made...but I was made broken? How is that right? I'm only 21 and I have the disease of the elderly...Everyone thinks I'm handling it better than I am. But God knows the truth. I know that the only reason I got through it was because He knew I needed the strength without me even asking. I just...don't understand how giving me a broken heart makes me wonderfully made... I feel like there was a huge oversight.
Any words of wisdom here?
So, a little over a month ago I had surgery and had a pacemaker implanted. I have a condition called sinus node disease, where the sinus node of my heart - the hearts natural pacemaker - is broken. My heart stopped at least twice before they realized this was happening... I guess, the reason I'm posting is because I'm kind of hoping someone else has gone through something similar. I am struggling with the idea that we are all wonderfully made...but I was made broken? How is that right? I'm only 21 and I have the disease of the elderly...Everyone thinks I'm handling it better than I am. But God knows the truth. I know that the only reason I got through it was because He knew I needed the strength without me even asking. I just...don't understand how giving me a broken heart makes me wonderfully made... I feel like there was a huge oversight.
Any words of wisdom here?