Is there anyone else who has had cancer?

[anjelica]

Is there anyone else out there who has had or who has cancer? I know that I have a thread going already, and I don't want my lovely friends to stop posting on that one, but I just wondered whether there is anyone who has had cancer who knows what it is like towards the end of the chemo, and awaiting the final scan?

I am finding this stage so very difficult, and faith is not helping as my faith does not measure up, and then I feel bad because I cannot be happy and positive and all of those things that ppl tell you to be. I am not good at all. This has been the severest test of my whole life, and I have had some real hard tests before this. This one, I have not measured up to and I feel a failure because I have not measured up. At this moment I feel ill, and am struggling real bad.

How has anyone else dealt with this, and with the worry about the results of the final scan?

My last chemo is next Wednesday, and I am dreading the scan that comes after that, and yet it can't come soon enough. My emotions are all over the place and I am finding this so difficult to deal with.

Please, my lovely friends who have kept me going on the other thread, keep on posting there, but I just wanted to know if there is anyone out there who knows what I am going through and who could talk it through with me and understand what I am going through.

Love, anjelica.

 

[DaisyDay]

So how did your last scan go?

Congrats on the last chemo. I had four biweekly (dose dense A/C) and seven weekly (taxol) with five more to go, then radiation.

I'm ambivalent about having cancer - well, it pretty much sucks, but there are much worse things and mine isn't that bad (stage 1, grade 3). I don't know that surgery didn't get it all - I prefer to think that it did and that chemo and radiation are just extra insurance. Apart from the fatigue, it hasn't been as grueling as I had imagined. I haven't been able to work every day, but I've taken very few off and I've been able to telecommute without any problem (one less worry).

I don't know what it's like for you.