Listen carefully, you are new to this, I am not. What matters to you now is learning the words of Christ nothing else for now. later you can read the first 5 books and the other books of the O.T. that Christ himself used, there is a lot of prophecy involved but you will understand once read. use cross index from biblehub to help you hers is an example;
If I testify about Myself, My testimony is not valid.
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if you look to the column on the right, you will find context, cross reference, treasury of lecture etc... this is helpful when learning.
Do not waste your time with anything else, Jesus is the ONLY way to eternal life and holds the knowledge you seek. You have to go at the source, the Messiah! Read the first 4 books of the NT, start there.
Youtube is filled with false teachers and false prophets, it waste your time. It will confuse you. Many of these false teachers, preachers do seem legit but beware, until you know the base which is the teaching od Jesus, you wont be able to distinguish if what they say is true or not. be careful and again go to the source, if anyone says different from jesus they are wrong, remember that.
Peace.
JFF
All of that "brokenness" is from Lacking the LORD,
that 'stimuli' is an attempt to find purpose and a meaning something only HE can give
At one point I thought I was Forsaken by God.
That was the enemy.