im ashamed

[angel jazz]

even tho i am forced to do this type of work i am ashamed and feel dirty disgusting but i dont know if i can live in real world this is all ive known this has always been my world i dont know who i am im who they say for me to be

 

[BlondieLashes]

Hi Angel! Posting here is brave and I will be here for you if you need to vent or chat. I have seen some of your other posts and it's apparent you have been sexually abused for a very long time. I am so sorry! NO ONE deserves that! You are NOT dirty and disgusting! In God's eyes you are precious, valued and loved!

I was sexually abused from a young age too. I lived in the sex industry for years. If I can get out and "live" in the "real world" so can you. I"ll admit it's sometimes still really hard, but I wouldn't go back to that lifestyle for anything.

Are you still being forced to be in the industry? I guess what I am asking is if you have a pimp of any kind...

Love to you. We are here for you.

 

[angel jazz]

Yes I am still in it thanku xxx

 

[angel jazz]

Can u pm me me when can please news to chat

 

[hope4today]

Hi Angel,

I just want to say that you are not dirty or disgusting despite how you may feel. As Blondie Lashes has said you are precious and valuable and loved by God and by us too. You are a beautiful woman who has been taken advantage of when you should have been loved and cherished.

I pray that you will begin to see the beauty and worth of yourself as God sees you. And I pray that you will find a way out of this abuse too. I know God can help you and you can be free to be who you really are and not who others demand you to be.

Praying for you and sending gentle hugs from my heart your way

Hope

 

[angel jazz]

Thanku I wish I can see a way out

 

[I Eat Pie]

Men can be such pigs.

 

[angel jazz]

Yes they are

 

[RuthD]

There is hope for you angel. I was forced for years to do sexual things, too. I had to move away to get away from it. I care about you believe me I do. Your life can get better. Can you get to a counselor?

 

[angel jazz]

No I can't get to one

 

[BlondieLashes]

Angel,

How are you doing today Honey? Praying for you!

 

[Criada]

Praying for you, sister.
You are not dirty, sweetie , you are a beautiful child of God, and very, very precious. The men who do this to you are the disgusting ones, not you

 

[angel jazz]

Not doing well and I feel dirty

 

[BlondieLashes]

My heart breaks for you angel. I know you have mentioned that you are a new Christian and I just want to tell you that in God's eyes you are "white as snow" meaning you are not dirty, but pure and beautiful! Jesus paid the price for us and you have nothing to be ashamed of. You have survived so much and are really so strong. I just wish you could see that. I remember you in my prayers and if you need anything please send me a message. Much love to you!

 

[paul becke]

angel jazz, feeling dirty is difficult to handle, because no matter how pure and chaste you are in mind and body, there are people out there who will always want you to feel dirty.

That's the hard part. The good part is that you and God know the truth. Christ could not have proved his goodness more totally, yet there were people who killed him and others who bayed at him and mocked him as he died. Remember he'd thrown all his captors to the ground for a brief spell, yet still they continued with their evil unabated.

The well-spring, the actual source of the cruelty of Jesus' crucifixion was the hatred of human beings. The apostles, we are told, were looked upon as the scum of the earth. So, you're just playing a hero's role at the moment in this spiritual warfare that's going on all around us. You're doing what you are doing now, only from fear, in a 'devil take the hindmost' society.

It's not only human beings, either. Indeed, we are also told that it is the Principalities and Powers, the falled angels, not flesh and blood we are actually fighting, so presumably they're the inspiration of bad behaviour in us, as well as false feelings of guilt. One of the names the Devil is known by is The Accuser.

I get it every day from our security services, but I'm lucky as they could be a whole lot worse.

 

[angel jazz]

Just feel so lost don't know what to do

 

[I Eat Pie]

Try talking to some of the males on the site. It may relieve you a little, knowing that there are good dudes out there. -hugs-

 

[angel jazz]

Thanku xx

 

[Criada]

Praying for you, precious one.

 

[angel jazz]

I need prayers ty xx