I am a teenager living with anxiety, and that's the reason I came here. I live in a highly religious family, and have always believed in a God. One day, about three to four months ago, few days before school started back up. I wondered, what if while we were in heaven, God got sick of us and just threw us out? So, I brushed this thought off as it scared me and went to sleep. Well, the next day, the thought stirred up again, this time, "What if there is no God?" and that is basically how my life has been for these three to four months. My anxiety has gotten better and better, until today, where I felt terrible. I thought I had overcome it, solid that there was a God, until it was shaken the night before. Reading causes more damage towards it, and I try to read online things that calm me down, but those lead to more questions. One question I have, is why do when people die on the operating table or just in general are resuscitated, why do some of them see nothing? Just blackness like they are taking a nap, I don't want to cease to exist, I want to be with God. I need answers to this. Death scares me when it comes to this, and the worst part is that the logic behind it makes sense. But then, most of the world believes in some God, while only a small part doesn't. I just need answers, and I'm terrified out of my mind.