I have hodgkins lymphoma (5)

[brinny]

Anyway so we took my mother home and we went for a drive without her and we put the CD on in the car and one of the tracks was called "Hope"

When that track came on I made A REAL SUDDEN DECISION. I decided to ring my old schoolfriend and invite her to come to a garden centre restaurant with us on my birthday to celebrate being clear of cancer. I decided to go forward in faith and hope. She is a lovely Christian and she said she was so touched to be asked and then she said that she would pay for it - in thanksgiving to the Lord.

I was amazed again.

My mother comes into it about here so I will leave that for the next instalment. I was so so so so happy at that stage and feeling so good about tomorrow and the future

LOL! What a daring daughter of the Most High you are.......it appears that God's steadying, calming, and prompting hand is upon you for you to step into a new chapter like this......fearlessly.

What a blessing that you called your friend, and that SHE'S gonna pay for it and it will be a celebration of your birthday, AND so much more.....God is just a'smilin' on you dear heart

 

[anjelica]

Well it was just so so good brinny and I just felt inside of me that I would be healed and have a future. I have not really felt that before. And I was soooo happy.

But then I suddenly realised that my family ought to be invited to celebrate with us on my actual birthday which was the day we arranged with my friend and a day when normally my brother is free as well.

So I rang my mother and invited her and was soooo happy - but she was like a totally misery guts and she put the kibosh on EVERYTHING. I did not know what I had done - and I was so upset. She just wanted me to be destroyed once again. I didn't know why as she had been so happy today when I walked.

I rang my brother after that and told him what had happened and I was crying. I told him she tries to destroy any happiness that anyone has. He said that she is like that and that if they were free he and his wife would come with us as well.

I then worried about money because I could not expect my friend to pay for them too but I decided then that we wold pay for everyone.

My mother does not want to be happy at all and I was going to be celebrating BEING ALIVE when I cold have been dead. I nearly died and was saved in the nick of time. I thought she would want to celebrate that.

Anyway, I now feel so deflated. I know I shouldn't but I do and am trying to get back to where I was and it is so hard. She always wanted me dead anyway. Always.

I hope that I can get back on track again for tomorrow so I can get through the scan cos all that happiness was helping me to feel good about it and to get trhough.I am so sorry that I am so fragile

 

[anjelica]

Anyway my birthday is on April 26 and you all are invited to a party HERE on CF in this thread. I will by then know if I am cancer free or not. I expect to be. I will be celebrating being born and being alive against all the odds. Just like Lady

 

[brinny]

Well it was just so so good brinny and I just felt inside of me that I would be healed and have a future. I have not really felt that before. And I was soooo happy.

But then I suddenly realised that my family ought to be invited to celebrate with us on my actual birthday which was the day we arranged with my friend and a day when normally my brother is free as well.

So I rang my mother and invited her and was soooo happy - but she was like a totally misery guts and she put the kibosh on EVERYTHING. I did not know what I had done - and I was so upset. She just wanted me to be destroyed once again. I didn't know why as she had been so happy today when I walked.

I rang my brother after that and told him what had happened and I was crying. I told him she tries to destroy any happiness that anyone has. He said that she is like that and that if they were free he and his wife would come with us as well.

I then worried about money because I could not expect my friend to pay for them too but I decided then that we wold pay for everyone.

My mother does not want to be happy at all and I was going to be celebrating BEING ALIVE when I cold have been dead. I nearly died and was saved in the nick of time. I thought she would want to celebrate that.

Anyway, I now feel so deflated. I know I shouldn't but I do and am trying to get back to where I was and it is so hard. She always wanted me dead anyway. Always.

I hope that I can get back on track again for tomorrow so I can get through the scan cos all that happiness was helping me to feel good about it and to get trhough.I am so sorry that I am so fragile

this is just a thought...only a thought....take it or leave it, just thinkin' out loud....you could have a separate celebration with just you, your friend, and Bob and a separate one with family (the purpose being to have God's anointing grace permeate everyone there including your mom LOL)

 

[brinny]

Anyway my birthday is on April 26 and you all are invited to a party HERE on CF in this thread. I will by then know if I am cancer free or not. I expect to be. I will be celebrating being born and being alive against all the odds. Just like Lady

Thank you! Will be here fer sher!!!

 

[anjelica]

I thought of that brinny and suggested to my brother that we do that. If I had just gone ahead and gone with only my friend it would have caused trouble. But my friend has been so so faithful throughout all of this nightmare although she cannot see me often as she is caring for her 88 year old mother. It would have been lovely and she would have said Grace at the table and it would have been soo happy. My brother now seems to be trying to come on the actual day - and I am confused now. I am praying that God steps in and takes it all over and sorts it all out. I am fed up with my mother. She always upsets everything and everyone.

 

[anjelica]

I was so lookin forward to coming in here and having loads of your lovely happy bouncy thingys brinny and celebrating the miracle and being happy all together in here and it all went wrong and I can't bring myself back again to where I should be. Can you help me?

 

[brinny]

I thought of that brinny and suggested to my brother that we do that. If I had just gone ahead and gone with only my friend it would have caused trouble. But my friend has been so so faithful throughout all of this nightmare although she cannot see me often as she is caring for her 88 year old mother. It would have been lovely and she would have said Grace at the table and it would have been soo happy. My brother now seems to be trying to come on the actual day - and I am confused now. I am praying that God steps in and takes it all over and sorts it all out. I am fed up with my mother. She always upsets everything and everyone.

praying that either way, it's a blessing all around......

guess what? you had me intrigued...i dunno if this is the same CD, but i found a complete CD of The Celtic Spirit....not sure if it's the same one, but i'm listening now...there's someone playing the bagpipes to "Breton Suite Montagne" now.....

 

[anjelica]

Not sure brinny. It might be but I can't remember all the ones on it and it is in the car LOL

 

[brinny]

I was so lookin forward to coming in here and having loads of your lovely happy bouncy thingys brinny and celebrating the miracle and being happy all together in here and it all went wrong and I can't bring myself back again to where I should be. Can you help me?

Awwwww, it happens...i was gonna mention that precious.....it was soooo glorious today......and then when other factors come into the mix it kinda deflates the buoyancy......yet....and yes, i say yet.....cuz God's just as close if not closer than when hE was so evident through hIs angels there all in your path.....i remember a song i heard once on Youtube....

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=RemjPD7Ma6k

 

[Susie~Q]

amen:

Hi Anji, hope these help

Wow, I am so HAPPY for your miracles, they are truly a gift from The Lord!!!!!
How exciting that you walked, without the walker. Our dear Lord was holding your hand for sure.

Hey, don't let your mum ruin it for ya or your brother. Sounds like Satan is working through them, tell him to get lost, he will NOT steal your joy. Remember, the joy of The Lord is your strength. Yippee. Praise The Lord

I will be at your party, lol, just remind me.

 

[brinny]

hahaaaa Anjelica let me know if i needs ta slow da roll....i was gettin' ready to post a get on yer feet n' shout spiritual

 

[anjelica]

Thankyou brinny and Susie. You are helping me. I so want to get back to where I was. The song was just right brinny and is so true. Thankyou.

I was crying a lot cos this road makes you so vulnerable and so fragile and my bruv rang and he was so upset at what my mother did and he said he was going to carry me though tomorrow. He said my mother is nothing.

Susie I will remind you about the party. I was going to be dead but I am alive and I was born despite all attempts of my mother to get rid of me when in the womb. I am here and I am ALIVE

 

[anjelica]

Yay brinny lets have the get up n shout one. I want to get back to where I was - we are celebrating God's miracle of me being alive and me getting better and taking up my bed and walking LOL

 

[brinny]

still feelin' the ---->

 

[Susie~Q]

We are so glad you were born and so is Jesus. We love you bunches.

 

[brinny]

Yay brinny lets have the get up n shout one. I want to get back to where I was - we are celebrating God's miracle of me being alive and me getting better and taking up my bed and walking LOL

ok, now this is a little slower than the one i was lookin for

Sister Act 2 - Oh Happy day - YouTube

 

[Debby 24]

Hi Anjelica, just read about your miracle, wow that's amazing, I am so happy for you. Celebration time indeed my sweet sister, I have to tell you we were praying last night (hubby and I for you), after we spoke on the phone, and the word HOPE came to him. YIPEE Praise God.

 

[Debby 24]

 

[Debby 24]

Yes we love you and you are so precious, Jesus loves you more.