- May 11, 2018
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I fell into a series of willful sins after being saved and now I am completely evil on the inside. I feel cold in the heart with no tenderness. I don't care about anything no matter how hard I try to. I don't have a conscience.
I think about killing myself every single day for the last couple of months. I can't take this anymore. I just want judgement day to come quickly and to bear the wrath of God and get it over with and then suffer in the lake of fire forever. I just want to ask God why He created me and why He bothered to save me to only allow me to fall away. I have no goodness inside of me anymore. No remorse, no love, and nothing. I cannot change it but rather not act on my evil thoughts and emotions. I may be possessed. I can't take this anymore.
I think about killing myself every single day for the last couple of months. I can't take this anymore. I just want judgement day to come quickly and to bear the wrath of God and get it over with and then suffer in the lake of fire forever. I just want to ask God why He created me and why He bothered to save me to only allow me to fall away. I have no goodness inside of me anymore. No remorse, no love, and nothing. I cannot change it but rather not act on my evil thoughts and emotions. I may be possessed. I can't take this anymore.