savingmyfamily said:
There are other issues that we both need to work on. He does not want to spend family time with us. He travels all the time for work and he spends a lot of time away doing his "other activities" such as hunting and fishing etc.
We need to remember that we can only work on our own issues. Focusing on our spouse's issues is nonproductive.
savingmyfamily said:
He wants me to respect him and to change who I am
Does he really want you to change who you are? Or does he want you to change how you interact with him?
savingmyfamily said:
.....should't my children and I should be treated with the same respect? He acts like it is a chore to be a part of our family and when he does anything with us he comes across to me as if he is doing us a favor. I believe he should want to do things with his family. He chooses his sports and work over us everytime.
Our spouses will not always value what they should, but once again, we have to remember that focusing on that is giving aid and comfort to the enemy who is trying to destroy our families.
savingmyfamily said:
That is why I am having such a hard time showing him respect.
When we're having difficulty respecting the man, we can always focus on respecting "the uniform".
savingmyfamily said:
When I have in the past nothing was any different, it seems no matter what I say or do it was not right. I just truly believe that he is not in love with me and I am afraid that the kids are getting the short end of the stick.
Even if nothing in the past has worked, that doesn't mean that nothing will work in the future.
No matter how short the end of the stick seems now, believe me, it only gets worse with a divorce.
savingmyfamily said:
So, do I stick around and wait for the kids to go off to college and then we split? Do I start making a life for me?
I vote for seeking first the Kingdom and living for the King.
savingmyfamily said:
I can't make him fall in love with me.
The worldly "in love" thing is not what marriage is all about. True love described in 1 Corinthians 13 is unilateral, not expecting anything in return. It is not unusual for the husband of a wife truly demonstrating that kind of love to find himself falling in love with her.
savingmyfamily said:
I thought we were a pretty happy couple and then I find out he would have divorced me if it was not for the kids?
At least this shows that he does value the children. Though not easy on the ego, it is something to be thankful for.
savingmyfamily said:
I don't want a divorce, do I stay with someone who wants a family only when it is convenet for him? (ex. Christmas, Company functions)
The answer to that is probably in your wedding vows.
savingmyfamily said:
He is not in love with me so he is unhappy, I don't want to make him unhappy but I believe with ALL my heart even if I show him all the repect in the world nothing will change.
If you truly believe that nothing will change, then you are being deceived because the Truth is:
Matthew 19:26 Jesus looked at them and said, "With man this is impossible, but with God all things are possible."
Proverbs 21:1 The king's [or husband's] heart is in the hand of the LORD; He directs it like a watercourse wherever He pleases.
savingmyfamily said:
Even if it did, how do I know that he is not feeling the same about our relationship?
You don't need to know anything other than what the Spirit is telling you.
savingmyfamily said:
Thank you for letting me vent. I am so confused and upset and being able to let it out sure helps.
I totally understand the frustration and despair you are feeling. It is really good to examine where you're at because then you can see the lies of the devil and know how to fight back. Your ID is so appropriate because that is exactly what you're being called to do--save your family.
There is a roaring lion prowling around trying to steal, kill and destroy our families, but we can take a lesson from Yeshua and how He fought back in Matthew 4:1-11. With every lie that the devil came at Him with, He had a ready answer because the Scriptures were engraved on His heart.
We have to take every thought captive, try the spirits, discern the lies, and then search out the Scriptures for the Truth (the Sword of the Spirit, Ephesians 6:10-18) and speak the Truth out loud (faith comes by hearing, Romans 10:17) so that it will go through that ear pathway to the heart. And we need to memorize (engrave on our hearts) all the Scriptures we can.
Everything you need to become the woman your husband fell in love with and will fall in love with again is in His Word. The secret is learning to hear and obey His voice:
Isaiah 30:21 Whether you turn to the right or to the left, your ears will hear a voice behind you, saying, "This is the way; walk in it."