I have such a hard time with being lonely, no matter how many people are around me. I feel so out of place. People tell me to "get over it". When I see something of my Moms, they say, "it is only things". And that makes it harder for me to want to be around people. I don't want pity. I just want people to understand that I am grieving. But I also am very lonely. It is hard for me to pick up the phone and call someone. Does anyone else find it hard to do the initial reaching out? Is that normal or am I the only one that experiences that? I sit at home and sometimes just sit in the dark with the TV on. I was always on the go before Mom got sick. When she got sick, I stayed with her night and day and my social life came to a standstill. And I would do the same thing over again. But my friends got mad at me because I wasn't there for them. Since Mom died, I don't hear from anyone. But then, if I do go out to do something, all I think about is Mom because we did everything together. I know I am rambling. But thanks for listening.