I've been toying with the idea of posting in here... I've held off for unknown reasons, but it's time.
For the last few years my physical fitness has declined, partly due to getting into a fairly inactive rut, party due to self worth and social issues. Physical fitness definitely plays a roll in my chronic back pain, and that's something that is going to take a long time to fix.
I get into a workout/stretching routine, but find it difficult to stay committed because my back just hurts so much most days. I basically have to force myself to endure more pain by working out and tiring my back more in order to get better (hopefully).
Not an hour I'm awake goes by where I am not in significant pain. I can somewhat manage it by varying what I am doing and not do the same thing, sit/stand/lay down, for extended periods of times.
Recently it has been getting to the point of to much pain. I'm not talking the point where I do something drastic, but the point where I get angry. I don't want to go there, it's not a good place to go.
Even though it's been years, I just don't know how to deal with debilitating pain most every waking hour. I am not expecting to wake up tomorrow and the pain to be gone, I know God can do that, but I also know that I need to develop habits and work towards this too.
I guess I am asking for praying for determination of mind, body and spirit. Most nights I come home and just lie on the couch... in tears, then go to bed, get up and do it all over again.
I've been to doctors, they say get used to it. I've tried medicine, it doesn't touch it. I need help.
For the last few years my physical fitness has declined, partly due to getting into a fairly inactive rut, party due to self worth and social issues. Physical fitness definitely plays a roll in my chronic back pain, and that's something that is going to take a long time to fix.
I get into a workout/stretching routine, but find it difficult to stay committed because my back just hurts so much most days. I basically have to force myself to endure more pain by working out and tiring my back more in order to get better (hopefully).
Not an hour I'm awake goes by where I am not in significant pain. I can somewhat manage it by varying what I am doing and not do the same thing, sit/stand/lay down, for extended periods of times.
Recently it has been getting to the point of to much pain. I'm not talking the point where I do something drastic, but the point where I get angry. I don't want to go there, it's not a good place to go.
Even though it's been years, I just don't know how to deal with debilitating pain most every waking hour. I am not expecting to wake up tomorrow and the pain to be gone, I know God can do that, but I also know that I need to develop habits and work towards this too.
I guess I am asking for praying for determination of mind, body and spirit. Most nights I come home and just lie on the couch... in tears, then go to bed, get up and do it all over again.
I've been to doctors, they say get used to it. I've tried medicine, it doesn't touch it. I need help.