BPD and Ritual Abuse

[Bluerose31]

I have been praying to Jesus about my wounds.I have prayed that Jesus will continue to comfort me. I pray that Jesus will heal me from my torture and to help me understand that I am a torture victim and that my life has changed from it. Jesus explained to me that torture is the worst thing that can be done to a person. Jesus explained to me that I will never be the same and that I have to be gentle with myself. Jesus said I will never understand the cruelty that was done to me. Jesus said that my BPD has gotten worse because of my torture and that sometimes I do not feel my emotions well. Often times I am numb and want to cry but can't. I read books on BPD and they help me sometimes. Jesus says I can express my emotions to him and that will help me heal. Recently I have not been able to feel my emotions well. I have a lot of anger and pain about the ritual abuse but I write to Jesus and it helps me. Sometimes I write stories which help me express my emotions and other times I journal to Jesus. In the past I would hit myself and self harm to release my emotions. I know Jesus does not want me doing that and that if I bring my emotions to him it will help me heal. Jesus said he can handle my rage, pain, sadness and grief.

 

[Hidden In Him]

I have been praying to Jesus about my wounds.I have prayed that Jesus will continue to comfort me. I pray that Jesus will heal me from my torture and to help me understand that I am a torture victim and that my life has changed from it. Jesus explained to me that torture is the worst thing that can be done to a person. Jesus explained to me that I will never be the same and that I have to be gentle with myself. Jesus said I will never understand the cruelty that was done to me. Jesus said that my BPD has gotten worse because of my torture and that sometimes I do not feel my emotions well. Often times I am numb and want to cry but can't. I read books on BPD and they help me sometimes. Jesus says I can express my emotions to him and that will help me heal. Recently I have not been able to feel my emotions well. I have a lot of anger and pain about the ritual abuse but I write to Jesus and it helps me. Sometimes I write stories which help me express my emotions and other times I journal to Jesus. In the past I would hit myself and self harm to release my emotions. I know Jesus does not want me doing that and that if I bring my emotions to him it will help me heal. Jesus said he can handle my rage, pain, sadness and grief.

Bluerose, I know I don't always respond to a lot of your posts because they're hard for me to read. But I want you to know how proud I am of you. The stand you take against the enemy of your heart and soul is so admirable, and how you have continued to trust in Jesus as your True Friend and Savior. Always know that you are an inspiration to me, and to others who see the struggle that you have faced and are still working through. There is great reward coming some day for all your faithfulness to Him, despite the terrible things you had to endure.

In Christ,
Your brother Hidden

 

[Bluerose31]

Bluerose, I know I don't always respond to a lot of your posts because they're hard for me to read. But I want you to know how proud I am of you. The stand you take against the enemy of your heart and soul is so admirable, and how you have continued to trust in Jesus as your True Friend and Savior. Always know that you are an inspiration to me, and to others who see the struggle that you have faced and are still working through. There is great reward coming some day for all your faithfulness to Him, despite the terrible things you had to endure.

In Christ,
Your brother Hidden

Thank you so much for these words Hidden. They touched my heart and soul. God bless you.

 

[Jlaw260]

I felt compelled to reply yo you as I have experienced the same thing with my BPD. I ask God to help me cope, help heal me, please take my pain away. Then I waited and read. I tried to do with just him and I.

That was my thought process but I changed when I regained sight that God WORKS through others. Godly, earthly followers are his outlet to us in many ways. I had a very hard time hearing him speak to me, but I saw his work that was directed for me through others CLEAR as day. Never loose site that the enemy lies to you.

I prayed these simple words "God will you guide me to the answer and solution". I wanted to know what steps I needed to take OUT THERE. I have never seen his work and love more clear than after that.

I heard very profound words from my sister. Our purpose here is to get to know Jesus Christ for our eternal salvation, and help as many others to do the same thing. The rest if filler.

The answer and solution is there, and I pray that you are lead on that path.

 

[Bluerose31]

I felt compelled to reply yo you as I have experienced the same thing with my BPD. I ask God to help me cope, help heal me, please take my pain away. Then I waited and read. I tried to do with just him and I.

That was my thought process but I changed when I regained sight that God WORKS through others. Godly, earthly followers are his outlet to us in many ways. I had a very hard time hearing him speak to me, but I saw his work that was directed for me through others CLEAR as day. Never loose site that the enemy lies to you.

I prayed these simple words "God will you guide me to the answer and solution". I wanted to know what steps I needed to take OUT THERE. I have never seen his work and love more clear than after that.

I heard very profound words from my sister. Our purpose here is to get to know Jesus Christ for our eternal salvation, and help as many others to do the same thing. The rest if filler.

The answer and solution is there, and I pray that you are lead on that path.

Thank you so much for your response. God bless you