Hello. I really need help with a specific sin that has been ruining my walk with christ, my faith and my life in general. I can not bring myself to stop smiling at a sertain very very bad thing that should not be funny at all. It is very shamefull so I am reluctant to tell. This has been going on for so long that I am not even sure I can feel the holy spirits convictions anymore. God has told me to stop severall times and I did two lucky times but it took alot to do it. He has stopped talking to me and he says that I'm dead which is probably because I'm deep into sin, I'm pretty sure my conscience is dead, my heart is so hard that I'm not even afraid of hell anymore and I have never gotten reborn. It should never have come to this and I should have known better because I could feel very strongly that something was wrong plus the fact that I used to read the bible a lot. I could tell more for those who doesn't believe me or doesn't think this is serious. I did so much bad that caused it to get to this point. I don't even think I should pray myself because my prayers are an abomination and insincere. Although I used to and still have asked God for help a lot but he has said no.
Hi Karin. Please know there is nothing ever bad enough that Jesus Christ wouldn't forgive you. Also though, victory is in Jesus Christ.
1 Corinthians 15: 54-57
54 When the perishable has been clothed with the imperishable, and the mortal with immortality, then the saying that is written will come true: “Death has been swallowed up in victory.”
55 “Where, O death, is your victory?
Where, O death, is your sting?”
56 The sting of death is sin, and the power of sin is the law. 57 But thanks be to God! He gives us the victory through our Lord Jesus Christ.
One promise of salvation is overcoming. We overcome by the blood of the lamb and by the Word of our testimony. I pray this over you in Jesus name, that you will come to a saving relationship with Jesus Christ, so that you can overcome the sin in your life by the blood of Jesus Christ and the power of His resurrection.
Salvation comes first, then victory over sin. You don't have to walk alone.
8 There is therefore now no condemnation to them which are in Christ Jesus, who walk not after the flesh, but after the Spirit.
2 For the law of the Spirit of life in Christ Jesus hath made me free from the law of sin and death.
Romans 8:1-2