- Jun 19, 2016
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I don’t want to be over dramatic but tbh 5 years ago my life changed forever.
I was 16 and went on a camping trip and met a girl I liked. I came home from the camping trip
and after a few days I never felt the same again. My mind had changed and didn’t get aroused by women anymore.
I initially thought, this is a bit strange but googled some things and thought it was just a phase. But my feelings never returned. Nowadays I can only recognise when I see a girl that I know was my “type” but I struggle to feel anything deeper than that and I never really get the butterflies in my stomach (is this idiomatic phrase?) anymore - I just feel empty and dead inside.
As a teenager this destroyed me as I thought I could be turning gay or something. This caused me great anxiety and HOCD developed. I was very afraid of people thinking I was gay and also was concerned by my lack of interaction with women.
I stopped being attracted to women 5 year ago and now my life is bad ever since. I get sad every time I appreciate a good looking person who isn't a woman my age. I don't think I'm gay but I have fear of it because others may think I am.
This went on and on and I think I may have become a bit depressed as nothing seems to spark an interest in me anymore. I lost my interests in cooking and other things like my subject I study now at university. I've no friends or people who care about me and no girl like me.
I would prefer to like women my own age but God does not grant this wish of mine even though I ask him for 5 yrs. The only girl that is nice to me is my 14yr old cousin from Spain. She is a cute little thing with funny accent. I don’t know why she likes me since nobody else does. Whenever I visit them they always like to be with me.
My cousin is kind and endearing but I need friends my own age as I have none.
Maybe I should emigrate to Spain. Maybe people would like me there and maybe my feelings would return.
Thanks for reading my message
I was 16 and went on a camping trip and met a girl I liked. I came home from the camping trip
and after a few days I never felt the same again. My mind had changed and didn’t get aroused by women anymore.
I initially thought, this is a bit strange but googled some things and thought it was just a phase. But my feelings never returned. Nowadays I can only recognise when I see a girl that I know was my “type” but I struggle to feel anything deeper than that and I never really get the butterflies in my stomach (is this idiomatic phrase?) anymore - I just feel empty and dead inside.
As a teenager this destroyed me as I thought I could be turning gay or something. This caused me great anxiety and HOCD developed. I was very afraid of people thinking I was gay and also was concerned by my lack of interaction with women.
I stopped being attracted to women 5 year ago and now my life is bad ever since. I get sad every time I appreciate a good looking person who isn't a woman my age. I don't think I'm gay but I have fear of it because others may think I am.
This went on and on and I think I may have become a bit depressed as nothing seems to spark an interest in me anymore. I lost my interests in cooking and other things like my subject I study now at university. I've no friends or people who care about me and no girl like me.
I would prefer to like women my own age but God does not grant this wish of mine even though I ask him for 5 yrs. The only girl that is nice to me is my 14yr old cousin from Spain. She is a cute little thing with funny accent. I don’t know why she likes me since nobody else does. Whenever I visit them they always like to be with me.
My cousin is kind and endearing but I need friends my own age as I have none.
Maybe I should emigrate to Spain. Maybe people would like me there and maybe my feelings would return.
Thanks for reading my message