Every weekend, I come home and m. It was the same tonight. It's compulsive, and so stupid. And yet I do it anyway.
Just want to send out some encouragement. I'm a newb here, but I know for myself as well, accountability would go a long way.
I don't need someone who's going to tell me what to do, I know what I need to do, I just need someone who's going to follow up if I post something or a struggle or a desire. I can send an email and say... Ho oh. Here comes the feelings again. And I know I'll have someone praying for me and following up saying, lets chat. How did you do. etc...
For you Grandvizier I would suggest the following (this is a repost from a different forum buts its a start)
"Your not alone, I will add you to my prayers my friend. Its not easy.
Don't forget - you must keep your thoughts captive and obedient to God.
Which essentially means, stop lust even before it starts, if that means diverting your eyes from a scantily clad billboard or commercial, avoid movies with nudity or sec scenes (GL with this one, its everywhere) divert your eyes. Starve that part of your mind that craves the lust. Make your self a plan of action.
1. If the thoughts creep in do 10 pushups
2. If its still there, text an accountability partner
3. Once its out there in text form, you're going to have to account for it. (this helps alot)
4. If the urge is still there - cold shower, mind bomb yourself (think of 5-6 different things one after another)
5. If its still there hop on here and write about how its making you feel.
etc...
The key is fellowship and starving your mind. So many encounter these issues. We're here for each other. Keep fighting, if you stumble get back up.
"There is no condemnation for those who are in Christ Jesus." -
Romans 8:1.
Which essentially means, guilt, its not from Jesus, its the enemy trying to separate you from the truth. Jesus loves you, he wants a lasting and meaningful relationship with you, and he has already paid the price for our sins. Just embrace him."
All that to say, if you want an accountability partner, I'm here