- Jun 19, 2016
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I do not care about many things at all and have wondered for many years why I am so less emotional than everyone else.
To be completely honest:
I never got upset when my grandparent died
I never got upset when my other grandparent faded with dementia
I never missed my sisters when they left home
I understand that sometimes people do nice things for me but I find it difficult to feel gratitude for it
However I cried when my guinea pig died which is strange compared to above.
When I think of these things I just wonder how mentally sick in the head does this make me? Why am I so heartless? I never asked or wanted to be this way - it’s just the way my brain seems to function.
It is for this reason that I am have found it so difficult to actually discover Jesus. I just don’t seem to care/empathise and so even though I understand Jesus dying on the cross was kind for us, it’s like my brain doesn’t care and doesn’t feel any thanks.
How can I care about people I can’t see when I can’t care about the family I can see?
I feel like I’m evil
To be completely honest:
I never got upset when my grandparent died
I never got upset when my other grandparent faded with dementia
I never missed my sisters when they left home
I understand that sometimes people do nice things for me but I find it difficult to feel gratitude for it
However I cried when my guinea pig died which is strange compared to above.
When I think of these things I just wonder how mentally sick in the head does this make me? Why am I so heartless? I never asked or wanted to be this way - it’s just the way my brain seems to function.
It is for this reason that I am have found it so difficult to actually discover Jesus. I just don’t seem to care/empathise and so even though I understand Jesus dying on the cross was kind for us, it’s like my brain doesn’t care and doesn’t feel any thanks.
How can I care about people I can’t see when I can’t care about the family I can see?
I feel like I’m evil