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Care to share your channel on YouTube?I have been hesitating to mention these things but I should tell somebody about them, so here we go...
I have been continuing to have a lot of negative thoughts recently. I feel so hurt about many things that have happened in my life. I've been bullied and sometimes treated cruelly throughout my life: at school, online, and at work. Nearly all the friends I've had abandoned me (to the few friends I still have from CF, I greatly appreciate your friendship). My life hasn't turned out at all like I hoped it would.
For months I've been having the feeling that the whole world hates me and/or thinks I'm crazy. It makes me very depressed. Mostly this comes from the bad memories I have of the time I was persecuted and betrayed by people I thought were my friends. People who claimed to care about me yet never spoke to me again after the event. CF has been toxic to me as well, which is why I'm not very active anymore. Sometimes when people weren't nice to me or abandoned me, it was partially (if not all) my fault because I wasn't being very nice either, and I didn't even realize it until it was too late to apologize. So I feel bad not only about how I was treated but also about how I acted.
Then, I made a Youtube account over a month ago after years of part of me wanting to join and part of me being hesitant to join. But I have been thinking multiple times since then that maybe it wasn't such a good idea. The fact that more than a few of my videos have been "disliked" (I don't think dislikes should even be allowed, honestly), including some of my recent work, has made me very upset. I now feel like I'm a terrible musician. To make matters worse, I left a kind comment on a video a few days ago, and the next day when I looked it was gone! Now I'm worried that the creator of the video (who doesn't know me) doesn't like me and deleted my comment on purpose. I don't know if I should stay on Youtube or leave, because if it's a toxic place that doesn't like me and makes me feel bad about myself, why am I even using it? But on the other hand, if I delete my account I will never be able to share any more of my music or videos.
To be honest, I have a very hard time loving others these days because so many people are unkind, selfish, and evil. I don't even like myself because of all the foolish mistakes I've made.
I'm sorry this was so long. If you don't want to read through the whole thing, please just say a prayer for me. Thank you.
https://www.youtube.com/channel/UC9DMDRlQz_5RBlwDR8ct9OwCare to share your channel on YouTube?
I don't know if I should stay on Youtube or leave, because if it's a toxic place that doesn't like me and makes me feel bad about myself, why am I even using it? But on the other hand, if I delete my account I will never be able to share any more of my music or videos.
I can relate-completely. But I've found that my focus: my prayers, my attention, my desire to please-must be on God, not man. Past hurts stir up our egos-and keep us more like the world than like Him. It's hard to love a neighbor while their slapping us in the face. And while we're not to be doormats, we're to stand up for truth and righteousness within ourselves first of all-whether or not the world appreciates it. The world's values are skewed- tending towards desire for self-glory-so we're bound to treat each other wrong. When our focus is on God then we are no longer trying to impress any human-and we understand why we sin against each other-and we personally don't take it so seriously anymore. The world's pursuits can all become sort of silly to us, in fact. It's about Him, not us. And we can pray that He helps get our focus off of ourselves and onto Him.I have been hesitating to mention these things but I should tell somebody about them, so here we go...
I have been continuing to have a lot of negative thoughts recently. I feel so hurt about many things that have happened in my life. I've been bullied and sometimes treated cruelly throughout my life: at school, online, and at work. Nearly all the friends I've had abandoned me (to the few friends I still have from CF, I greatly appreciate your friendship). My life hasn't turned out at all like I hoped it would.
For months I've been having the feeling that the whole world hates me and/or thinks I'm crazy. It makes me very depressed. Mostly this comes from the bad memories I have of the time I was persecuted and betrayed by people I thought were my friends. People who claimed to care about me yet never spoke to me again after the event. CF has been toxic to me as well, which is why I'm not very active anymore. Sometimes when people weren't nice to me or abandoned me, it was partially (if not all) my fault because I wasn't being very nice either, and I didn't even realize it until it was too late to apologize. So I feel bad not only about how I was treated but also about how I acted.
Then, I made a Youtube account over a month ago after years of part of me wanting to join and part of me being hesitant to join. But I have been thinking multiple times since then that maybe it wasn't such a good idea. The fact that more than a few of my videos have been "disliked" (I don't think dislikes should even be allowed, honestly), including some of my recent work, has made me very upset. I now feel like I'm a terrible musician. To make matters worse, I left a kind comment on a video a few days ago, and the next day when I looked it was gone! Now I'm worried that the creator of the video (who doesn't know me) doesn't like me and deleted my comment on purpose. I don't know if I should stay on Youtube or leave, because if it's a toxic place that doesn't like me and makes me feel bad about myself, why am I even using it? But on the other hand, if I delete my account I will never be able to share any more of my music or videos.
To be honest, I have a very hard time loving others these days because so many people are unkind, selfish, and evil. I don't even like myself because of all the foolish mistakes I've made.
I'm sorry this was so long. If you don't want to read through the whole thing, please just say a prayer for me. Thank you.
I don't think there's a like x infinity button, but I wish there was. This is such a good point.Past hurts stir up our egos-and keep us more like the world than like Him.
I have been hesitating to mention these things but I should tell somebody about them, so here we go...
I have been continuing to have a lot of negative thoughts recently. I feel so hurt about many things that have happened in my life. I've been bullied and sometimes treated cruelly throughout my life: at school, online, and at work. Nearly all the friends I've had abandoned me (to the few friends I still have from CF, I greatly appreciate your friendship). My life hasn't turned out at all like I hoped it would.
For months I've been having the feeling that the whole world hates me and/or thinks I'm crazy. It makes me very depressed. Mostly this comes from the bad memories I have of the time I was persecuted and betrayed by people I thought were my friends. People who claimed to care about me yet never spoke to me again after the event. CF has been toxic to me as well, which is why I'm not very active anymore. Sometimes when people weren't nice to me or abandoned me, it was partially (if not all) my fault because I wasn't being very nice either, and I didn't even realize it until it was too late to apologize. So I feel bad not only about how I was treated but also about how I acted.
Then, I made a Youtube account over a month ago after years of part of me wanting to join and part of me being hesitant to join. But I have been thinking multiple times since then that maybe it wasn't such a good idea. The fact that more than a few of my videos have been "disliked" (I don't think dislikes should even be allowed, honestly), including some of my recent work, has made me very upset. I now feel like I'm a terrible musician. To make matters worse, I left a kind comment on a video a few days ago, and the next day when I looked it was gone! Now I'm worried that the creator of the video (who doesn't know me) doesn't like me and deleted my comment on purpose. I don't know if I should stay on Youtube or leave, because if it's a toxic place that doesn't like me and makes me feel bad about myself, why am I even using it? But on the other hand, if I delete my account I will never be able to share any more of my music or videos.
To be honest, I have a very hard time loving others these days because so many people are unkind, selfish, and evil. I don't even like myself because of all the foolish mistakes I've made.
I'm sorry this was so long. If you don't want to read through the whole thing, please just say a prayer for me. Thank you.
Taking a look at your videos, I wonder if the dislikes are from there being no sound on many of them. I understand not wanting to put your voice out there. But without there at least being the freely usable music Youtube has, this may give some people an odd feeling. A lot of people are uncomfortable with silence. Some theorize it triggers a feeling of rejection, which could then make them angry. Anyways, I think the majority of speedpaint type videos have music if no one is talking.
You've alluded to the past event before. We can't control what thoughts pop up in our head. But we can choose to ignore them once we have them. If instead of ignoring the thought, you ruminate on it, it's like relieving a painful experience, and it makes you sad and angry again and again. This then influences how you see people, leading to a glass half empty perspective. Your vision becomes clouded by the fixation on the past rather than someone being kind in the present. It is better to forgive others and ourselves. Otherwise, the past holds us like an anchor, drowning us in a sea of negativity. Forgive and let the past be the past. Today is the day the Lord has made.
The more we see the good in others, the more we see the good in ourselves. The more we see the good in ourselves, the more we see the good in others.