What Lukaris said.
As for me, I have nowhere to go in a very lonely exile in a third country. Spiritually I am completely isolated. My friends are back in Russia, my wife’s friends are mostly younger and politically and religiously decidedly to the Left of me.
As to my participation here, I feel I have said what can and should be said about what I have to share with other Orthodox Christians, especially in terms of language and education, and people either heard me or refused to, and there’s not much else to say.
Having lost my secondary job, and my car (which is supposed to get me to my primary job), I’m sitting around occasionally praying and saying, “OK, God, how are you going to get me out of this?” I’m still learning Serbian, have read Winnie-the-Pooh in translation and am now reading the Gospel of Matthew, and asking Him, “Why do you want me to learn this?”.
So why stay here? Well, younger people are jumping to the new formats - Instagram, Tik-Tok (I still don’t allow my last teenage daughter that one), stuff that encourages short attention spans, and it is all alien to me. This is a format that still agrees with me.