I made promises to God while being insane that i cant follow :(

[Holoman]

If I were you, I would try the medication. Why live like this if there is something that can help? I'm on medication for mental health problems and have been on a countless number of medicines over the years. When you find something that helps, it is like a Godsend. You can finally think clearly, and the world no longer feels overwhelming, or pointless.

With or without mental problems, we all make mistakes, do things we shouldn't do, promise things we don't deliver. God forgives us if we repent, and he forgives you. Try your best next time.

 

[stanilovesGod]

In a way i am afraid to try medication now. The reason being, at 27 i am dealing with this from since i was 7. I've always thank God managed to keep my crazy thoughts for myself. I know, i understand they are delusional, i understand those promises/rituals are happening due to my condition, that triggers certain parts of the brain into thinking something is wrong, and the brain than invents certain promise/ritual in order to try to calm the things down. I understand those things clearly and actually most people with OCD realize that. I assume its different for every mental problem there. Now apart from my family and very closed circle of people no one knows what i am dealing with.
So in a way, managing those thoughts on my own have become usual for me, hard but works again thank God. Maybe i will start medication one day if things go worse, but for now a nice talk and a bit of logical thinking do the trick.