What is the best way to deal with intrusive thoughts of false doctrine?
I used to believe in eternal recurrence {that you live your particular life an infinite number of times, and make the same decisions, like a movie on infinite loop}. Sometimes I get frequent and intense feelings of deja vu. Even though I know the cause of it {state or context dependent recall that you can't remember experiencing}, I still get these thoughts that this is "proof of eternal recurrence." Sometimes when particularly bad things happen I think "it sucks that I will have to experience that again." Or if good things happen, "it's too bad I won't be able to skip to this."
I don't know what's wrong with me. I don't even known if intrusive thoughts are what to call this. I just get these really terrible thoughts that sound like they originate from me, convincing me that this or that is "proof" of whatever, and if I think that they are just intrusive thoughts, I think that "I know they're not."
The idea of any other belief being the truth terrifies me, because if the Bible isn't real, then I am definitely going to whatever hell exists because that is what I deserve. Even saying that, my intrusive thoughts say that I am clinging to what I "know" is a false belief out of fear.
I am probably not making much sense. I don't even know how this happened. I'm a Christian, I was baptized. I honestly believed Christ died for my sins. I still believe that, or at least, I think I do, but again, my intrusive thoughts or whatever tell me that I don't, because if I did I wouldn't be having these thoughts. It really is infuriating. Every time I try to argue with myself that this or that proves Christianity or disproves paganism, my intrusive thoughts or whatever say "but you don't really believe that." Please advise.
I used to believe in eternal recurrence {that you live your particular life an infinite number of times, and make the same decisions, like a movie on infinite loop}. Sometimes I get frequent and intense feelings of deja vu. Even though I know the cause of it {state or context dependent recall that you can't remember experiencing}, I still get these thoughts that this is "proof of eternal recurrence." Sometimes when particularly bad things happen I think "it sucks that I will have to experience that again." Or if good things happen, "it's too bad I won't be able to skip to this."
I don't know what's wrong with me. I don't even known if intrusive thoughts are what to call this. I just get these really terrible thoughts that sound like they originate from me, convincing me that this or that is "proof" of whatever, and if I think that they are just intrusive thoughts, I think that "I know they're not."
The idea of any other belief being the truth terrifies me, because if the Bible isn't real, then I am definitely going to whatever hell exists because that is what I deserve. Even saying that, my intrusive thoughts say that I am clinging to what I "know" is a false belief out of fear.
I am probably not making much sense. I don't even know how this happened. I'm a Christian, I was baptized. I honestly believed Christ died for my sins. I still believe that, or at least, I think I do, but again, my intrusive thoughts or whatever tell me that I don't, because if I did I wouldn't be having these thoughts. It really is infuriating. Every time I try to argue with myself that this or that proves Christianity or disproves paganism, my intrusive thoughts or whatever say "but you don't really believe that." Please advise.