Have I committed the unpardonable sin?

[KiteRider]

I believe Evil and Sin are two different concepts and must be defined separately
Evil can stem from short-term error,weakness, mis-judgement and/or maladjustment to external environmental stimuli/situations
Sin on the other hand is conscious rebellion against deity and the goodness of God and is the wholehearted identification with Evil
We are after all not perfecters of wisdom yet are we not? and humans can easily commit evil or error in the short-run and hardly be a candidate for sin
However left unchecked I believe acts of evil overtime can and do evolve into sin
Habitual sinners may easily became iniquitous to universal realities and God's divine plan for the universe
However you must have faith in the time mercy ministry of God for provision of possibility for repentance and rehabilitation even for the most atrocious of sinners
Any judgement that is pass by God will be so fair in the end as to win the acceptance of the sinner him/her self

Man learns and evolve out of trial and tribulation and this may evolve passing through phrases of evil and error experiences
You should have faith in inner guidance of God who indwells the minds of mortals to over time guide you to the shores of divinity
I believe that man is poise for a bright and glorious destiny as he have a capacity to feel guilt
The ability to feel guilt in and of itself can evolve man into a being of sublime compassion and beyond finite imaginative grandeur in and out to the far reaches of the cosmos in the future

 

[discipler7]

My psych has never seen someone suffer like me for such a long time after a what they think was a 'psychosis'. I am so so sure it was God who reached out to me after I desperately prayed for help when I was depressed in 2015.

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The "psychosis" that you experienced in 2015 was very likely satanic/demonic(not from God), similar to the manic phase of Manic Depression or Bipolar Disorder. Do not be deceived by Satan. The source of mania is demonic and needs to be rejected.
... The "high" or euphoria from psychotropic drugs, eg shrooms, LSD, etc, is similar to demonic mania. Hence, another name for alcohol is spirits or the devil's drug.(LEVITICUS.10:9)

Maybe, your depression in 2015 or earlier was caused by the breaking of God's Law at DEUT.18:9-14, ie the dabbling in the occult will lead to demonic afflictions, eg speech, hearing or mental disorder.(eg MARK.7:32)

JOHN.10:10 = 10 The thief does not come except to steal, and to kill, and to destroy.
I have come that they may have life, and that they may have it more abundantly.

 

[jim35215]

Man learns and evolve out of trial and tribulation and this may evolve passing through phrases of evil and error experiences
You should have faith in inner guidance of God who indwells the minds of mortals to over time guide you to the shores of divinity
I believe that man is poise for a bright and glorious destiny as he have a capacity to feel guilt
The ability to feel guilt in and of itself can evolve man into a being of sublime compassion and beyond finite imaginative grandeur in and out to the far reaches of the cosmos in the future

I love it. It only took 17 maybe 21, to learn that. Hopefully he learn from you

 

[sanyambe]

Hey im going through the exact same thing I dont know how you are doing? I feel like the bible now makes sense when before it didnt. I feel its too late but I must help other although I dont know where to start. Have you been affected physically though?

 

[jim35215]

Hey im going through the exact same thing I dont know how you are doing? I feel like the bible now makes sense when before it didnt. I feel its too late but I must help other although I dont know where to start. Have you been affected physically though?

I am not sure where you are coming from "I feel like the bible now makes sense when before it didnt" None of us have the same walk.

Mar 4:16 And these are like the ones sown on the rocky ground, who whenever they hear the word immediately receive it with joy.
Mar 4:17 And they have no root in themselves, but are temporary. Then when affliction or persecution comes because of the word, immediately they fall away.
Feeling that GOD is not with you is emotion, not reality.
Joh 14:18 "I will not leave you as orphans; I am coming to you.
I am sorry for what you are going though.
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Rom_12:15 Rejoice with those who rejoice; weep with those who weep.

If this is not true we can not believe any of this. My life has been mostly hell since I was saved but I know this is true.

Mat_22:16 And they sent their disciples to him with the Herodians, saying, "Teacher, we know that you are truthful and teach the way of God in truth, and you do not care what anyone thinks, because you do not regard the opinion of people.
Joh_1:17 For the law was given through Moses; grace and truth came about through Jesus Christ.
Joh_8:32 and you will know the truth, and the truth will set you free."
Joh_8:45 But because I am telling the truth, you do not believe me. Finaly what more can I look for
Joh_14:6 Jesus said to him, "I am the way, and the truth, and the life. No one comes to the Father except through me.

1Pe_1:7 so that the genuineness of your faith, more valuable than gold that is passing away, but is tested by fire, may be found to result in praise and glory and honor at the revelation of Jesus Christ,
Luk_24:26 Was it not necessary that the Christ suffer these things and enter into his glory?"

I did not write the book but
Rom_8:17 and if children, also heirs—heirs of God and fellow heirs with Christ, if indeed we suffer together with him so that we may also be glorified together with him.
Php_1:29 because to you has been graciously granted on behalf of Christ not only to believe in him, but also to suffer on behalf of him,

hope this helps love you as a sister, stay strong

 

[sanyambe]

hello Jim
Thankyou for your response. I dont know how to explain it. For a time the Word was being opened up to me by God. It wasnt just a book but it was like I understood what was being spoken to my heart.....then somehow,, i was holding onto unconfessed sin,, i think i started getting blinded,, thats what i mean but now its open to me in a different way.

 

[Galnaros]

Hey im going through the exact same thing I dont know how you are doing? I feel like the bible now makes sense when before it didnt. I feel its too late but I must help other although I dont know where to start. Have you been affected physically though?

Hey, I'm sorry to hear that you're going through the same thing. It's really really bad and drives me to insanity. I'm stuck in my own mind and I can't escape from it. Hard to explain. During my awakening I also started to 'understand' the bible more and more than I used to. I haven't been affected physically but the mental pain on itself is excruciating.
I'm being hospitalized in a scientific hospital's psych department to see if they can atleast fix my numbness. If my hospitalisation doesn't work out , I will try one more thing before applying for assisted suicide and that is Ayahuasca.

Would like to hear more from you!

 

[jim35215]

hello Jim
Thankyou for your response. I dont know how to explain it. For a time the Word was being opened up to me by God. It wasnt just a book but it was like I understood what was being spoken to my heart.....then somehow,, i was holding onto unconfessed sin,, i think i started getting blinded,, thats what i mean but now its open to me in a different way.

I too went for a season like that yes I did sin but I still believed the Bible is the word of GOD, I feel my life was like Nebuchadnezzar.
Dan 4:31 While the words were still in the mouth of the king, a voice from heaven came, saying, 'To you, King Nebuchadnezzar, it is declared that the kingdom has departed from you,
Dan 4:32 and you will be driven away from human society and your dwelling will be with the animals of the field and they will cause you to graze the grass like oxen, and seven times will pass over you, until you acknowledge that the Most High is sovereign over the kingdom of humankind and that he gives it to whom he wills.'
Dan 4:33 Immediately the word was fulfilled concerning Nebuchadnezzar, and he was expelled from human society and he ate grass like oxen, and his body was bathed with the dew of heaven until his hair was like the hair of an eagle and his nails grew like a bird's claws.

Sin will separate us from GOD, but there is hope.
Mat_6:33 But seek first his kingdom and righteousness, and all these things will be added to you.
Mat_7:7 "Ask and it will be given to you; seek and you will find; knock and it will be opened for you.
Heb_11:6 Now without faith it is impossible to please him, for the one who approaches God must believe that he exists and is a rewarder of those who seek him.

Even thought the Bible read like a novel I knew it was not the books fault.

Before reading the Bible, try this

1. Praise HIM the awesome GOD he is remember things he has done in your life, things done to friend and families, you favorite Bible stories.
2. Confess you sins to HIM

A Ones you know are the problems that caused the Bible to change.
B Sins you recently committed
3. Ask the HOLY SPIRIT to open your eyes.
4. Never give up read the Bible any way. Remember Hebrews 11:6.
GOD BLESS YOU.

 

[jssceckert]

This is a bit late but i want to add that it sounds like you need a good reason to become a christian and stay there. Let me give you a reason; others. God needs a person who has hit rock bottom so that he can use that person to show people at rock bottom the light. You can help God save others. You are a rare gem. You have been there and seen the worst of sin. If you can walk the streight and narrow path then anyone can. If you want to go to heaven then you will find the courage to turn your feelings back on and lead others out of darkness.

 

[sanyambe]

Jim thank you for your encouragement it means alot. Asking for the holy spirit to open my eyes seems futile because He is gone from me. I feel dead inside. Everything just seems dark and evil and I cant even repent cause He is not there. Ill keep reading the Word though and seeking God. Its interesting that you mentioned Nebuchadnezzar because I asked God to do what He did to him to remove my pride from me. I hope you are in a better place now though.

 

[sanyambe]

Hey Galnaros
Dont look at suicide as an option. Wait it out God is God even if there is no hope for you and me we can help others. You can message me no problem Im failing to get a message to you.
Hold on

 

[Galnaros]

Hey Galnaros
Dont look at suicide as an option. Wait it out God is God even if there is no hope for you and me we can help others. You can message me no problem Im failing to get a message to you.
Hold on

Suicide is an option and it's confirmed by the fact that I haven't FELT anything since 1,5 year. Not even a small sensation...I'm numbed to the bone and it's got to end. 1,5 year without a single laugh or tear is excruciating. I am already sure that I committed the unpardonable sin because any trace of God has been removed from me, there is nothing left but emptyness and evil really.

 

[sanyambe]

Suicide is an option and it's confirmed by the fact that I haven't FELT anything since 1,5 year. Not even a small sensation...I'm numbed to the bone and it's got to end. 1,5 year without a single laugh or tear is excruciating. I am already sure that I committed the unpardonable sin because any trace of God has been removed from me, there is nothing left but emptyness and evil really.

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Wouldnt you want to help others. Also ending it now increases your stay in hades if thats where you are headed (God forbid) What if God is just punishing you.....Ive seen testimonies of people restored after 14years. If you were saved you have hope. If you can still say Jesus is Lord hold on....the spirit is there.

 

[Galnaros]

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Wouldnt you want to help others. Also ending it now increases your stay in hades if thats where you are headed (God forbid) What if God is just punishing you.....Ive seen testimonies of people restored after 14years. If you were saved you have hope. If you can still say Jesus is Lord hold on....the spirit is there.

I can't even help other people...I can barely communicate(in real life) because I am lost for words all the time. I have really become a retard through this. God can't be just punishing me, my mind has been damaged permanently and I can't change it. The daily torture is really driving me crazy. Like, my mind is doing these things,having these thoughts, you can't imagine.

 

[Galnaros]

Sorry

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Wouldnt you want to help others. Also ending it now increases your stay in hades if thats where you are headed (God forbid) What if God is just punishing you.....Ive seen testimonies of people restored after 14years. If you were saved you have hope. If you can still say Jesus is Lord hold on....the spirit is there.

, I forgot that you were in this predicament too so you can probably imagine how bad it is. Is your mind also messed up big times?

 

[Galnaros]

I was wondering. What if I have actually committed the unforgivable sin? What should I do? I mean... I have sinned gravely and to a point where I don't even care about my sins anymore. I can't see myself as a ungrateful man anymore after all the wrongs I have done. There is no consience left and I'm numbed to the bone. My mind is a barren place and it doesn't even function like a 'normal' person's mind. I have actually felt it when the Holy Spirit left me back in August 2016.
I chose to leave God and I don't even feel any regret even though I know that it was the stupidest mistake ever. I was offered a beautiful spirit-filled life and I just spat on it. These are all signs that I have actually committed the unforgivable sin and that I'm better off just ending my life instead of waiting for 'nothing' to happen. Am I not right? What can one do when they have already done the worst thing is the eyes of God? I am still alive but the conditions are terrible. I hope none of you make the same mistake as I have. Psychiatry isn't able to fix me because they simply can't fight God's wrath. It'a just over and I should just accept what's going to come next...eternal damnation. I hope my thoughts about reincarnation which I had during my enlightened phase are true and I get another chance.

 

[Galnaros]

Are there any testimonies of people who committed the unpardonable sin and then later 'recovered' somehow? I can't find any on the internet and I was wondering if any forum members have any information on this.

 

[derelekt]

Galnaros, when Jesus talks about the unpardonable sin he was referring to the leaders who attributed his work to Satan. My understanding is that if you have blasphemed the Holy Spirit, you will be unable to feel conviction of any sin, including blaspheming him.

I write this because I believe the pharisees came to a realization that Jesus actually was the Son of God and gave in to their flesh and knowingly opposed him. Just my two cents.

 

[Galnaros]

Galnaros, when Jesus talks about the unpardonable sin he was referring to the leaders who attributed his work to Satan. My understanding is that if you have blasphemed the Holy Spirit, you will be unable to feel conviction of any sin, including blaspheming him.

I write this because I believe the pharisees came to a realization that Jesus actually was the Son of God and gave in to their flesh and knowingly opposed him. Just my two cents.

Hey derelekt,
Thanks for your reply.
What you said about feeling any conviction for sin is actually what's going on. I don't feel any conviction, not even for blaspheming the Holy Spirit. I don't see my wrong doings as wrong. I have become such a cold and careless person and I think that I have already crossed the line of no return. That's why I think I can better stop living this pointless life. I mean, I haven't been able to DO anything in 1,5 year due to the circumstances.

 

[derelekt]

I've spent 30+ years dealing with the people in the darkest settings of our society. Serial killers, drug dealers, prostitutes, you name it. None of them even voiced any thought, I mean zero, about their actions. I think you even recognizing you have an issue is proof that there is a capacity to change.

There is always hope. Man, I'd pray, read God's word and pray some more. Every day.