Thanx so much guys

You made my day. So often I think I am all alone in my perspective of what "church" is.
The reason for the church in the NT was to spread the Gospel as new converts needed to hang with other believers for instruction. There is evidence in the NT that the Gospels and letters of the Apostles were being spread around, but not everyone had a copy [no printing press yet

] so they needed to gather in order to hear the Word. Now we have His Perfect Word in completion for instruction, correction, and discipline.
For some it is important to attend an organized church for fellowship and instruction. For some it is not. You should not be condemned for what you doing, but rather we should rejoice that God has lead you into such sweet fellowship with others of like mind. And this is unity in the Spirit - one in the Lord
Shalom!
ps: the Bible does not say that it is necessary for an ordained minister to oversee communion. two gathered to break bread and drink a little grape juice is doing as Jesus commanded.
Your not so alone at all sister! There are many (I personally know 62 other brothers and sisters) online who feel the exact same way (none of these go). They just dont ~say anything~ about it because it can become an argument.
But what we've all discovered (as you yourself might have as well) is real awesome fellowship in the Lord! ~This~ coming OUT OF our OWN individual connectedness TO HIM (First). Its so unbound (in so many more ways) then I can possibly describe. Its Our Great God working in and through each one up-ward in Him and to-ward one another. Praise His Name!
Hey, the greatest desire that could ever be set in our hearts is that which follows after the desire to know Him. To lay hold of the hope held out to us concerning THAT. To THAT we been called sis!

For us to comprehend (with all the saints) the incomprehendable ~the great love of God~ in Christ!
Theres no reward greater then HIM. Its Our Great God who hath placed this in our hearts. He has seated us in heavenly places together in Him. What amazing fellowship in Our Mighty King
I have witnessed the blessing of Christ (in and through the body) outside of the structure. Thats just from my own personal experience. I never knew it was possible that there be so many in Christ who seek Him away from the majorities eye (so to speak). Not only so but to be so blessed by such. What was more baffling (even to my own thinking) is hearing the same things though we be miles apart. My thinking was, "How can these toot the same sound when none of them (in my thinking) have ever been seated under the same roof to hear that sound? Then it dawned, they are following HIS VOICE and His Sheep do so hear his voice.
HE is NOT BOUND

Bless our Lord sis!
Our God COMPLETELY ROCKS

HE is SO Faithful and TRUE to us
and with the rightly discerned body...
Wow!
Now I have read what others MIGHT ~THINK~ what (even I) might mean by fellowship is ( as in ballgames, watching TV etc...) Theres nothing FURTHER from THE TRUTH !!

Its ones IDEA of what ~others~ might have meant by it and is ~attaching itself~ to you ( thats not what it is in truth). Not at ALL

If others mean it THAT way, its NOT at ALL as ~I~ mean by it.
Honestly, the greatest disinterest for ~those sorts of things~ seems to run through the veins of each of those God has led me to fellowship with. Bless HIS NAME !!
God KNITS! Theres none who knits like Him sis'

He knits IN
LOVE OF CHRIST
What I (personally) know (as has been my experience among them) is that they are near overtaken in their love for Him and the understanding of His words. They want to KNOW GOD. This is their desire and its very evident. Im ~attracted to~ THAT in any brother and sister, I find it absolutely irresistible!

We are rarely apart in regards to our coming to a better understanding of what God gives each one of us.
Phonecalls throughout the day are typical and such a blessing. We could at one moment be asking as the disciples did... ~ What
MEANETH He when
He SAYETH this? ~We
understand NOT what
He MEANEATH by this ?"

and its like ~
He breathes on us~ and
He gives understanding. He is just so darn Amazing. The LIVING GOD !! HE So LIVES and is ACTIVE in our LIVES... He truly
IS
It goes something like this... (The phone rings) HEY! Anything?! O MAN Youll NEVER believe this! Look what the Lord showed me here... THIS IS KILLER!! Check this out...!!

You get the picture, the Lord is just so GOOD!
Though I must say rejoicing together as ONE I find SO RARE out there. Wherever you find it, its just a plain wonderful thing (to me). I love them all to peices and I see (even them) as gifts for my own edication in Him. I so appreciate these sorts. Precious Jewels (as I call them).
They have razorless lips.
I was never really that blessed seated on a hard pew bench (only touching knees with another) and listening to what felt more like a lecture. Its just the truth concerning how it felt. Yet in regards to the fellowship (outside the structure) is where the greatest source of blessing to me. Its (as if for lack of better words) that He can effectually work after this manner (among us anyways). He does what He wants and through whom He wills as only He knows the hearts that seek Him and who are His. He is not bolted down by men (who, in ~some parts~ seek to control Gods working). Its not going to happen, if it does theres always
THE DOOR
HE is so rightly named.
For others who are indeed blessed within the structure, I would definately say, be blessed in it. I am not as one out to steal anyones joy or blessing. If one is blessed (wherein I or others might not be) does not mean we should judge one another. We should be glad that our Lord is doing great things and is not limited to temples made by hands.
That we do know for sure
Be comforted sis, theres others who feel the same as you.
WHOA!! that was LONGWINDED

Sorry sis, (use the printer and read it over the weekend)

Others can just utilize the scroll button till it burns out
Peace
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