God Wants To Kill Me

[tturt]

angelsfire84, think you've got a period of time to let Yahweh resolve some things - usually one at a time. Major area is your identity isn't youth leader or any of those other positions nor their acceptance or rejection. Though we can benefit from an evaluation of our critics' comments and get it clear with Yahweh and His Word in our hearts and minds about what they've said, then move on. Your real identity is in His Word such as Psa 139:14; Eph 3:16-20). Forgive yourself and others. You know, Yahweh helps us each step (Isa 41:10).

Job said "For the thing which I greatly feared is come upon me, and that which I was afraid of is come unto me. I was not in safety, neither had I rest, neither was I quiet; yet trouble came." (Job 3:25-26). We need to let Yahweh get rid of that kind of fear. I understand how difficult it is and learning to frequently asks Yahweh for the fruit of His Spirit, too (Gal 5:22-23; John 14:27).

Concerning the I'm no longer of any use to God except being martyed thoughts, think you would have peace if those thoughts were from Yahweh. Also, urging you to remind yourself that it isn't what you do but Yahweh loves you (John 3:16; Jer 31:3; II Thess 2:16-17).

-"Casting all your care upon him; for he careth for you." (I Pet 5:7) "Do not be anxious about anything, but in everything by prayer and supplication with thanksgiving let your requests be made known to God." Phillipi 4:6
-"Fear thou not; for I am with thee: be not dismayed; for I am thy God: I will strengthen thee; yea, I will help thee; yea, I will uphold thee with the right hand of my righteousness." Isa 41:10 "For God hath not given us the spirit of fear; but of power, and of love, and of a sound mind." II Tim 1:7
-Yahweh gives us each breath (Isa 42:5)
-Note what happened to David in I Sam 30:1-8. He had been doing what Yahweh wanted and then everything and everyone in the natural was removed. How did he handle it? There were several steps/stages. How do we encourage ourselves in The Lord? Responses may vary but probably includes thanksgiving and praising Him; playing Christian music that's about Him; meditating (focusing) on Scripture such as Psa 145; thinking about some of His titles, names, and attributes; singing a song to an audience of One; and/or glorifying His name such as Psa 16:11; 46:10, 69:30; 71:23; and 100:4.

 

[1213]

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I can't deal with this anymore. I don't know what to do. I can't think straight anymore. I can't focus on God. I can't talk to Him because I feel like He is done listening.

What's wrong with me???

I am not sure, but I think it would be wise to calm down. At this moment, you don’t have to go to anywhere. And I think it is not wise to go to preach to some distant place before you get peace into your own heart. I don’t believe God wants you to be murdered. It maybe that God wants you to go and preach the Gospel, and it may lead to death, but the goal is not death, but declaration of Gospel.

You worry that God don’t listen, but perhaps now is the time for you to listen what God tells in the Bible? I would recommend these for starters:

And fear not them which kill the body, but are not able to kill the soul: but rather fear him which is able to destroy both soul and body in hell. Are not two sparrows sold for a farthing? and one of them shall not fall on the ground without your Father. But the very hairs of your head are all numbered. Fear ye not therefore, ye are of more value than many sparrows.
Matt. 10:28-31

Peace I leave with you. My peace I give to you; not as the world gives, give I to you. Don't let your heart be troubled, neither let it be fearful.
John 14:27

He said to his disciples, "Therefore I tell you, don't be anxious for your life, what you will eat, nor yet for your body, what you will wear. Life is more than food, and the body is more than clothing. Consider the ravens: they don't sow, they don't reap, they have no warehouse or barn, and God feeds them. How much more valuable are you than birds! Which of you by being anxious can add a cubit to his height? If then you aren't able to do even the least things, why are you anxious about the rest? Consider the lilies, how they grow. They don't toil, neither do they spin; yet I tell you, even Solomon in all his glory was not arrayed like one of these. But if this is how God clothes the grass in the field, which today exists, and tomorrow is cast into the oven, how much more will he clothe you, O you of little faith? Don't seek what you will eat or what you will drink; neither be anxious. For the nations of the world seek after all of these things, but your Father knows that you need these things. But seek God's Kingdom, and all these things will be added to you.
Luke 12:22-31

If you have done something wrongly, I believe God forgives. It is actually the easy part. God gave through Jesus the right to forgive even for his disciples.

Whoever's sins you forgive, they are forgiven them. Whoever's sins you retain, they have been retained."
John 20:23

The difficult thing is to really understand, why should one regret and repent. Forgiveness is only small part. The greater part is how one can become righteous, which is needed for one to get eternal life as a gift.

These will go away into eternal punishment, but the righteous into eternal life.
Mat. 25:46

For the wages of sin is death, but the free gift of God is eternal life in Christ Jesus our Lord.
Romans 6:23

For I tell you that unless your righteousness exceeds that of the scribes and Pharisees, there is no way you will enter into the Kingdom of Heaven.
Mat. 5:20

Perhaps it is God’s will that you go to distant place to preach, but before that I think you should be well prepared so that you speak well.

We are better off walking over into the Middle East and giving up our bodies to ISIS to die brutal and horrible deaths because THAT is what constitutes a TRUE and REAL Christian and THAT is what shows your real FAITH in God and of course, Faith pleases God. So my only choice left is to let myself be murdered. I feel like God wants to murder me.

Martyrs are not the goal. Christian heroes are not the goal. There is also not any demand to prove how good Christian you are. The commandment is to love as Jesus loved and remain in truth.

"If you remain in my word, then you are truly my disciples. You will know the truth, and the truth will make you free."
John 8:31-32

A new commandment I give to you, that you love one another, just like I have loved you; that you also love one another. By this everyone will know that you are my disciples, if you have love for one another.
John 13:34-35

And definitely, you should not seek glory from other believers, because:

How can you believe, who receive glory from one another, and you don't seek the glory that comes from the only God?
John 5:44

And it would be wise to be humble, even if others boasts about their great achievements.

But all their works they do to be seen by men. They make their phylacteries broad, enlarge the fringes of their garments, and love the place of honor at feasts, the best seats in the synagogues, the salutations in the marketplaces, and to be called 'Rabbi, Rabbi' by men. But don't you be called 'Rabbi,' for one is your teacher, the Christ, and all of you are brothers. Call no man on the earth your father, for one is your Father, he who is in heaven. Neither be called masters, for one is your master, the Christ. But he who is greatest among you will be your servant. Whoever exalts himself will be humbled, and whoever humbles himself will be exalted.
Mat. 23:4-12

 

[NothingIsImpossible]

I was thinking about this topic since I seen it last and realized something very important.... if God wanted you dead you would be dead. I mean literally He could kill you instantly if He wanted. He wouldn't take His time or anything like that. Not that God is like that of course. He doesn't want you dead obviously. He loves you.

 

[insurchoftruth]

God let his own Son, Jesus Christ be killed for us, so that we can live eternally! God loves you, and does not want to kill you! The Bible says that when we were yet sinners, Jesus died for our sins, and that is how God demonstrated his love for us!

 

[GQ Chris]

This just sounds so Bizarre to me. If God wanted to kill you, you'd be dead by now without having to go to the middle east. When I was younger my biggest beef with God was that I thought he wanted me to become a roman catholic priest.