Every time I pray things get worse

[Raanger]

Thanks. Ive been real sick for days and unable to eat. The stress is getting to me. I don't compare myself to Job at all, he was a righteous man, I just don't see myself being that good. But I wish I could just do what he did, sit down somewhere and cover myself with ashes and wait it out. I wish it was that easy. I'm not saying he had it easy, I just mean I need a break away from my family so I can recover from all their drama. I don't have that option.
The person who somewhere in here said I should take a vacation hit it on spot. That is what I need. But I don't get that luxury. I noticed I do better when I am left alone and get some peace and quiet. I improve quite rapidly. But every day brings a new drama. Legal problems, death threats, false reports, lies, other kinds of threats. Seeking help through the law takes a lot of time and my medical condition is worsening with each day. My IBS is working full time now to the point I am sick with diarrhea and vomiting with it. My body is out of control because my brain is on overload. I have tried and tried to appeal to God. My heart feels totally broken. I wish I had taken a different path in life than the one I took. I would rather be totally alone in life than go through all this. It feels horrible to feel this sick. The only lifeline I have right now is you people and my Internet connection is messing up real bad and I don't feel well enough to even deal with that.
I don't know how much lower I can go. I feel death approaching. I don't mean suicide. I am not that way, but my body is so weak I have nothing left in me to care if I survive or not.

 

[smellycat]

scripture tells you to pray in private,don,t get into the mass prayer stuff,you lose your unique relationship with God.

 

[JessYca!]

Sometimes I feel like that too, but just hang in there...there's always a brighter day around the corner! 's

 

[TimAM]

 

[jenniferkat]

"Every time I pray things get worse"

Could be for a very good reason! I believe so!

Be blessed.

 

[UpandDown]

I've experienced similar things. I'm a Christian and often when I pray the opposite happens. I can almost set my watch to it.
If I ask God to protect my kids, they will be sick or injured within 48 hours.
If I pray and ask God to heal my mind, and clean my thoughts, I'll dream horrific nightmares I don't normally have.
It goes beyond a once or twice coincidence. It's nearly every time. My mother had the same thing happen when she prayed my sister would be safe on her trip and then was KILLED 5 days later.

I know bad things happen, but when they happen like clockwork after praying it starts to make me wonder what's going on. Why is God allowing this? It's not just that God isn't answer my prayers, it's the OPPOSITE happens. It's making me afraid to even pray anymore for fear of some curse on the family. But where is God in all this? Why is he allowing me to doubt and why is he not at least stopping the bad things from happening that come about from my prayers. WHAT'S GOING ON?

 

[look4hope]

We are here for you no matter the trial you're going through.

Ongoing Prayers, my friend.

 

[saved24]

This thread was from 2009 and was commented on again this month. I pray things have improved in this Raanger's life and this thread will help others.

 

[Joshua1987]

yeah i noticed this is 7 years old...

according to her profile, the last time the thread starter 'Raanger' posted was 2010

i also, unfortunately can relate to both 'Raanger' and 'UpandDown'

"Generational Curses" or un-dealt-with sin in your life may be a contributing factor

do research on this

i'm having to

 

[rockytopva]

Father I pray blessings on this request and faith in Jesus name I pray. Also taking these needs before God in prayer on the 4:00AM bbnradio.org Family Altar program.

 

[Linus]

Praying for your joy, peace, well-being, comfort, strength in the name of Jesus Christ. Thank You Lord!