I'm sorry I am not a perfect person, or the perfect Christian. I do the best I can. Evil seems to win every time. Not me doing evil, but targeting me. I don't know what else to say or do. I know I don't get everything I want but when you spend almost half your life trying to be a decent human being and a Christian and you are beaten down at every point you began to wonder why you are even here. Was my purpose in life just to help bring more suffering into the world?
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Every time I pray things get worse
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ekerazy78
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Many people through out the bible went through so many trials. Job lost everything including his health yet he continued to trust in God. Joseph was sold into slavery by his own brothers then sent to prison for a crime he did not commit. Both Job and Joseph could have been angry with God and said "WHY ME!" Instead they chose to daily put their trust in God. Sometimes God allows us to hit rock bottom so that we may be more dependent on Him and lean on Him more. God has a purpose for you just as He did with Job and Joseph. God works on His time though and not ours. Blessings will come to you, just hold strong and pray for patience!!
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I don't know anyone more dependent on God than me. I never had a real family. The one I had was abusive and neglectful so I was alone. And if it was just about me I could deal with it. But it is about 2 little people I love who will be horribly hurt. This evil coming upon us is more about what is happening to them. I would die for them gladly if it meant they would be ok. If this bad thing happening was only about me I could handle my emotions better. Some people see good in what has happened and think it will improve the total outcome. I've just had too much thrust upon me this year so it is hard for me to handle anything right now. I pray for relief and help for the little ones but I dont see an end to it. I just need to see an end in sight. Once I was sick for 8 months and almost died. I obviously survived but when something goes on so long and you keep getting worse it is like you are trapped inside a hell that never seems to end. It feels like eternal hell. I feel I have had so much pain that I cannot deal with more. God is the only one I have ever depended on so I dont know why he would need to test me so much. I am depleted. Something happened today that caused me such anguish, it is just hard to deal with. I feel alone. And what I dont understand is why Job finally got relief and its been almost 2 years and I am not getting that. I dont think Job's trial lasted 2 years. I know Eli (or Elijah cant remember which) lived in a cave for a long time to escape things. Wish I had a cave to go hide in. I need my breathing machine to survive tho so that wont work.
Do people really care about others or is that just a myth? Is it real or pretense? Why does God want us to suffer so horribly? I am afraid to pray now thinking I will make things worse. Thanks for your prayers because I feel God is not pleased with me at all. I just do not know why.
Do people really care about others or is that just a myth? Is it real or pretense? Why does God want us to suffer so horribly? I am afraid to pray now thinking I will make things worse. Thanks for your prayers because I feel God is not pleased with me at all. I just do not know why.
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I am praying for you and what you are going through. I have always thought that there is nothing any of us could ever go through that Jesus and/or His followers during His time on Earth went through as well. Just the other night my 8 year old son, as we were praying over his Bible for my mom who was about to start her 2nd round of chemo in a year,said, "I know what part we need to turn to." He proceeded to turn in his Children's Bible to Jesus' death on the cross and stated, "This is the part that anyone who is hurting should read. Nothing could be worse than someone hammering nails into your hands and feet. And then having soldiers gambling for your clothes!" In my mind, as I always do when recalling our Lord's death, I imagined how His mother Mary got through that awful, awful ordeal..watching her son spit on, whipped, kicked, etc. God's love and knowing that He was there through it all ....and their dependence on God..which is faith...that is how. Jesus was not depending on anyone here to get him through and neither was Mary...they knew that God, OUR Father, was there with them. That was how they did it. And they did not question.....but they hurt. Go to Him..He is there and God is the ONLY one who will NEVER let you down.
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I am still praying for you sister.
I really do feel you with this. A woman form my old church suggested Job ( I am newer to this), and it really hit home.
I hope your time for a huge blessing comes soon.
I really do feel you with this. A woman form my old church suggested Job ( I am newer to this), and it really hit home.
I hope your time for a huge blessing comes soon.
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mikki, what an amazing little boy you have. I will pray for your mother if that is ok with you. I am almost afraid if I pray for anything the opposite will happen. Not a good attitude I know. I feel my weakened state affecting my faith.
But in all my trials I have never really given up on God and his son, I just get scared sometimes, too scared.
Thank you richterforest.
hi Colleen, I actually studied Job many years ago. I should read it again.
onlythingavailable, thank you too.
and ekerazy78, thanks.
I do see many people in worse shape than me, in here, on the news, everywhere. My problem is my adrenal glands are exhausted and I have PTST, so I cannot handle stress well at all. My medical bills are so high as it is I cant afford more medications and tests I need. I do take a homeopathic remedy for anxiety and it helps calm me down...until another bomb hits and I have to get through that. I just retake it and after awhile I am ok. I always think the worst will happen in the end because as a child the worst did seem to always happen and I had no support at all. I am the end result of a very bad childhood. Jesus is my only refuge from pain and sometimes I feel he has let go of me. That is when I get scared.
I do pray for you Colleen, you are so young and I hope you get well soon. I have been sick for 20 years with an illness but mine did not become debilitating until I was around 38 years old. I dont want that to happen to you.
I am having trouble eating today. I need to eat or I cannot take my meds. If I can get food down I should improve mentally too.
But in all my trials I have never really given up on God and his son, I just get scared sometimes, too scared.
Thank you richterforest.
hi Colleen, I actually studied Job many years ago. I should read it again.
onlythingavailable, thank you too.
and ekerazy78, thanks.
I do see many people in worse shape than me, in here, on the news, everywhere. My problem is my adrenal glands are exhausted and I have PTST, so I cannot handle stress well at all. My medical bills are so high as it is I cant afford more medications and tests I need. I do take a homeopathic remedy for anxiety and it helps calm me down...until another bomb hits and I have to get through that. I just retake it and after awhile I am ok. I always think the worst will happen in the end because as a child the worst did seem to always happen and I had no support at all. I am the end result of a very bad childhood. Jesus is my only refuge from pain and sometimes I feel he has let go of me. That is when I get scared.
I do pray for you Colleen, you are so young and I hope you get well soon. I have been sick for 20 years with an illness but mine did not become debilitating until I was around 38 years old. I dont want that to happen to you.
I am having trouble eating today. I need to eat or I cannot take my meds. If I can get food down I should improve mentally too.
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Thanks so much for praying for me and keeping us updated. I am hoping to be better soon. It is now a wait it out process. I can keep food and vitamins (finally thats why I kept needing so much hospitalization) down.
Just a bunch of other side effects still hanging around. At least I learned young what I am allergic to right?
I will keep praying for you. I sure hope you get a huge breakthrough very soon. You sound a lot like me in some ways even though my condition is different and I am younger. Your posts as do some others, just stick with me and touch me.
I hope both of us have a praise report soon. Your story helps me to keep going.
Just a bunch of other side effects still hanging around. At least I learned young what I am allergic to right?
I will keep praying for you. I sure hope you get a huge breakthrough very soon. You sound a lot like me in some ways even though my condition is different and I am younger. Your posts as do some others, just stick with me and touch me.
I hope both of us have a praise report soon. Your story helps me to keep going.
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Praise God that you are retaining some food and vitamins. I admire Job that he could praise God even when he lost everything including his health and children. I wish I was stronger. These Biblical people who I believe were real, seem so far away. It is hard to relate to people that God actually spoke to physically. I am no where near being the perfect Christian or example. When I was young I wanted to be special to God and be someone God would be proud of. I have instead been brought down a notch or two, probably deservedly. But I would gladly take the lowest spot in heaven just to be with God forever.
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I am glad to be retaining food. I try to look at that when I feel very, very sick. It did used to be pretty bad.
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Stephanie7
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It is better to pray and have God with you helping you through, rather than to not pray and having to go through trials alone. If you want God to see you as special, believe that He exists and will help you when you call out to Him.
Remember without God it could have been even worse.Father God, may You show this one that You love her and only ask of her that she believes in You. Show her that no matter what it looks like, You have more power than the enemy and can overcome all evil. I ask that You will bless her, and lead her to her purpose in life. Help her to not get discouraged, but to keep on keeping on, strong in faith and calm asurrance that You are with her, helping her, In Jesus Name, Amen
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Thanks for your prayers. I am getting super paranoid now though. Last night I ended up in the ER for over 3 hours. Wasnt serious but I had to get a tetanus shot. Today I spent most of the day with diarrhea so bad it caused me to vomit also. It is over with but left me feeling very weak physically and mentally. It seems everyday I have another challenge. I am also paranoid because someone is calling the authorities on us for things we did not do. I feel surrounded by evil to the point I am afraid to even get out of bed. The diarrhea was caused by extreme stress I am sure.
I feel like all I want to do is cry all the time but it doesnt always come and I feel the stress building inside of me. I keep wondering what will it be next. It is like a never ending nightmare. I read somewhere that Job's torment lasted 7 years. I dont know if that is true or not but I know I wont physically last that long waiting for a break. My physical health was already bad and this trial I am going through is making me physically weaker. Sorry I complain so much but the fact is I usually dont complain. I just got to the point I couldnt take it anymore. So I came to this forum. I am a very scared human being.
I feel like all I want to do is cry all the time but it doesnt always come and I feel the stress building inside of me. I keep wondering what will it be next. It is like a never ending nightmare. I read somewhere that Job's torment lasted 7 years. I dont know if that is true or not but I know I wont physically last that long waiting for a break. My physical health was already bad and this trial I am going through is making me physically weaker. Sorry I complain so much but the fact is I usually dont complain. I just got to the point I couldnt take it anymore. So I came to this forum. I am a very scared human being.
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Dear sister, I am praying for you. Sometimes the more we love the Lord, the more the devil attacks. As you know, Jesus told us that we will be persecuted, just as He himself was persecuted. I don't know what your Bible study habits are like, but nothing will draw you closer than reading the Word (well, actually the same can be said for prayer) but I sometimes am so busy that I will read a verse here and there, as time permits. However, I know it's when I really delve into the word and read for hours at a time, particularly Jesus' words, that I experience a new depth in my spirit in communion with the Holy Ghost. So, if you are not doing that, it might really encourage your heart and give you the strength to better get through these trials. Also, every morning, you can pray Ephesians 6:10-18:
10Finally, be strong in the Lord and in his mighty power. 11Put on the full armor of God so that you can take your stand against the devil's schemes. 12For our struggle is not against flesh and blood, but against the rulers, against the authorities, against the powers of this dark world and against the spiritual forces of evil in the heavenly realms. 13Therefore put on the full armor of God, so that when the day of evil comes, you may be able to stand your ground, and after you have done everything, to stand. 14Stand firm then, with the belt of truth buckled around your waist, with the breastplate of righteousness in place, 15and with your feet fitted with the readiness that comes from the gospel of peace. 16In addition to all this, take up the shield of faith, with which you can extinguish all the flaming arrows of the evil one. 17Take the helmet of salvation and the sword of the Spirit, which is the word of God. 18And pray in the Spirit on all occasions with all kinds of prayers and requests. With this in mind, be alert and always keep on praying for all the saints.
This gets the day off to a great start. For more information on the full armor of God, I have found this site helpful (can't post sites, as my post count is too low, but it's called got questions dot org and there is a section in there that explains the full armor of God pretty well.
Our loving Father is there for you, sister. Persevere. Even when it seems He is silent, keep going, keep trusting, keep praising, keep praying (pray continually), keep in the Word. Do not ever be afraid to pray, as that is a trick of the enemy. Praying for others is another way I have found that draws me closer to Him.
I have had kind of a hard life myself, and I know what it is like to have one tremendous trial after another, for years on end, with no end in sight. I am currently going through the worst trial of my life to this point. Of course, God is using it to draw me closer to Him. I sometimes look at others' lives and I'm like, wow, what it must be like to have it so easy. (Sorry, God.) But He knows our hearts, He knows we are not perfect, and He forgives us through the precious shed blood of our Risen Savior.
As I said, my life has been one tremendous problem after another; and yet, there is hope in our Lord, and only in our Lord, and one of the things that keeps me going, is that I want to serve Him. I want to bring others to Him. I want to be pure and holy. I want to be used by Him. I want to be the things it says I can be through Him in the Bible, I want to bring glory to His name, I want to spend eternity with Him. Sometimes I have to remind myself of all those things in order to keep from sin. Not that I always succeed, sometimes I stumble, but then I get back up, through Him, (with remorse and repentance), and He dusts me off, and we start our walk again.
One last thought that comes to mind, is that no matter how many trials I face, no matter what they are, there is always someone worse off than me. I look around, and I am ashamed for complaining about my life. One of my favorite hymns is, "Count Your Blessings." If I start to look at how many ways He has blessed my life (salvation, freedom to serve Him, children, family, friends, church, His beautiful creation, a job, roof over my head, a special talent or two, the list goes on) then I start to see how truly present He has been in my life, and how tremendously I am blessed.
I know how hard it gets to keep your sanity. My heart is burdened for you, sister. I hope it helps to know we are praying for you, and the Lord is still there for you. Life is hard, but God is good. I will keep praying.
10Finally, be strong in the Lord and in his mighty power. 11Put on the full armor of God so that you can take your stand against the devil's schemes. 12For our struggle is not against flesh and blood, but against the rulers, against the authorities, against the powers of this dark world and against the spiritual forces of evil in the heavenly realms. 13Therefore put on the full armor of God, so that when the day of evil comes, you may be able to stand your ground, and after you have done everything, to stand. 14Stand firm then, with the belt of truth buckled around your waist, with the breastplate of righteousness in place, 15and with your feet fitted with the readiness that comes from the gospel of peace. 16In addition to all this, take up the shield of faith, with which you can extinguish all the flaming arrows of the evil one. 17Take the helmet of salvation and the sword of the Spirit, which is the word of God. 18And pray in the Spirit on all occasions with all kinds of prayers and requests. With this in mind, be alert and always keep on praying for all the saints.
This gets the day off to a great start. For more information on the full armor of God, I have found this site helpful (can't post sites, as my post count is too low, but it's called got questions dot org and there is a section in there that explains the full armor of God pretty well.
Our loving Father is there for you, sister. Persevere. Even when it seems He is silent, keep going, keep trusting, keep praising, keep praying (pray continually), keep in the Word. Do not ever be afraid to pray, as that is a trick of the enemy. Praying for others is another way I have found that draws me closer to Him.
I have had kind of a hard life myself, and I know what it is like to have one tremendous trial after another, for years on end, with no end in sight. I am currently going through the worst trial of my life to this point. Of course, God is using it to draw me closer to Him. I sometimes look at others' lives and I'm like, wow, what it must be like to have it so easy. (Sorry, God.) But He knows our hearts, He knows we are not perfect, and He forgives us through the precious shed blood of our Risen Savior.
As I said, my life has been one tremendous problem after another; and yet, there is hope in our Lord, and only in our Lord, and one of the things that keeps me going, is that I want to serve Him. I want to bring others to Him. I want to be pure and holy. I want to be used by Him. I want to be the things it says I can be through Him in the Bible, I want to bring glory to His name, I want to spend eternity with Him. Sometimes I have to remind myself of all those things in order to keep from sin. Not that I always succeed, sometimes I stumble, but then I get back up, through Him, (with remorse and repentance), and He dusts me off, and we start our walk again.
One last thought that comes to mind, is that no matter how many trials I face, no matter what they are, there is always someone worse off than me. I look around, and I am ashamed for complaining about my life. One of my favorite hymns is, "Count Your Blessings." If I start to look at how many ways He has blessed my life (salvation, freedom to serve Him, children, family, friends, church, His beautiful creation, a job, roof over my head, a special talent or two, the list goes on) then I start to see how truly present He has been in my life, and how tremendously I am blessed.
I know how hard it gets to keep your sanity. My heart is burdened for you, sister. I hope it helps to know we are praying for you, and the Lord is still there for you. Life is hard, but God is good. I will keep praying.
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I'm truly sorry for the bad things that are coming your way. All I can do is to pray that you find comfort and peace.. God Bless.
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Stephanie7
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I understand what you are going through, a short week ago I felt the same way as it seemed there was an attack on my family members. God is good, he delivered them and has them on the mend.
I've heard it said that God doesn't alway stop bad from happening but He always helps us through.
Father God, I pray that You will ease the burdens on this family and grant them peace. I pray that You will take away the worries and the fear. I ask that You will cover them, deliver them from the hands of the enemy and protect them from all harm and bless them, In Jesus Name, Amen
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I've heard it said that God doesn't alway stop bad from happening but He always helps us through.
Father God, I pray that You will ease the burdens on this family and grant them peace. I pray that You will take away the worries and the fear. I ask that You will cover them, deliver them from the hands of the enemy and protect them from all harm and bless them, In Jesus Name, Amen
(((((((Hugs)))))))))))))
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I tried to post here earlier saying thank you to the newer people posting that are praying for me but kept getting a forbidden access message.
So I'm making this a bit shorter thanking you.
I will say a family members life has been threatened by a cruel unstable unpredictable man and we have no way of knowing if that will actually come to pass or not. So living in fear is not fun. We are trying to get legal things going but EVERYTHING takes what seems like forever. Even if we do if someone wants to kill you it isnt like the police are going to follow us around to protect us. Please pray this man wakes up and his heart changes and that he will leave us alone. I will continue to seek your help and guidance fellow Christians. Thank you for caring.
So I'm making this a bit shorter thanking you.
I will say a family members life has been threatened by a cruel unstable unpredictable man and we have no way of knowing if that will actually come to pass or not. So living in fear is not fun. We are trying to get legal things going but EVERYTHING takes what seems like forever. Even if we do if someone wants to kill you it isnt like the police are going to follow us around to protect us. Please pray this man wakes up and his heart changes and that he will leave us alone. I will continue to seek your help and guidance fellow Christians. Thank you for caring.
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These scriptures came to mind when reading your post:
Luke 6
20Looking at his disciples, he said:
"Blessed are you who are poor,
for yours is the kingdom of God.
21Blessed are you who hunger now,
for you will be satisfied.
Blessed are you who weep now,
for you will laugh.
22Blessed are you when men hate you,
when they exclude you and insult you
and reject your name as evil, because of the Son of Man.
23"Rejoice in that day and leap for joy, because great is your reward in heaven. For that is how their fathers treated the prophets.
Praying.
Luke 6
20Looking at his disciples, he said:
"Blessed are you who are poor,
for yours is the kingdom of God.
21Blessed are you who hunger now,
for you will be satisfied.
Blessed are you who weep now,
for you will laugh.
22Blessed are you when men hate you,
when they exclude you and insult you
and reject your name as evil, because of the Son of Man.
23"Rejoice in that day and leap for joy, because great is your reward in heaven. For that is how their fathers treated the prophets.
Praying.
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