Big_sad_john said:
I have lost my job and my girlfriend bailed on me. I find it so hard to even get out of bed. I tried to get help but with no insurance I am stuck going through County services. I need serious therapy but the county won't provide that. Only pills and I get to see the doctor for about 10 minutes once a month. I really have tried so many options and have had the door slammed in my face over and over again. I keep having this dream where an Angel tells me that it is OK to let myself die so I can come home to God. Am I imagining that or am I really going crazy. I just want the pain and lonelyness to end.
You need to stay on the forums, at least you have some communication with people. You can pm me anytime. You sound like you have a lot of pressure at the moment. Is there a local call hotline you can access?
I come from a very poor background, the reason I studied psychology was because of the lack of available services for those of a low socio-economic bracket.
You need a break from your stresses, you need to access some coping skills.
1. surf for suggestions to cpe
2. remember this period is just that, a period of time, you've had periods where there was not so much stress, and there *will* again be periods like this
3. use the forums to talk with people through the hardest times
4. when its really difficult reply to a thread that needs a listening ear, we go through experiences to share with others.
5. where you are now is the wilderness, it does not have to be a bad thing, try different coping approaches to make your way through it. We enter the wilderness so that we can come back and share what we've discovered with others, especially those finding themselves lost in a wilderness
6. when its really hard - GO OUTSIDE, there is something about the outdoors that gets those neurotransmitters firing off in a different pattern.
7, when outdoors walk, ride, wirte, draw, volunteer somewhere, garden
Hope this helps some, pm anytime