What you describe sounds like the spirit of death or terminus. Both insight yearnings for death and self-harm. Here's a brief
explanation. Follow these steps and you should get relief. Do them in order.
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book is free. Begin there to ground and settle your thoughts.
Watch and pray through these sessions. Make sure you're fasting. You don't have to do them all at once. Make sure the first two are done on the same day and work through the others. You'll feel lighter as you break things off.
1.
Uprooting the Evil Altar of Your Fathers House
2.
Uprooting the Evil Altar of Your Mother's House
3.
Overthrowing the Evil Altar of Marine or Water Spirits
4.
Silencing Evil Winds
5.
Destroying the Evil Altar of Infirmity
6.
Uprooting the Evil Altar of Delay
7.
Silencing the Python Spirit Over Your Finances
You'll need to go outside and get some dirt for the following prayers. Put some in a Ziploc bag and keep it on hand. If it's moist lay it out on a newspaper or paper towel and let it dry. These should be done after the others. You must address the hindrances beforehand. Don't be daunted by the list. It's more involved because I'm including other things you've wrestled with.
1.
Release Prosperity Now
2.
Supernatural Favor
3.
Bring Forth Destiny Helpers
4.
Swallow Unemployment
5.
Prayers for Your Workplace
6.
Prayers for Your Children
Scriptural Support
“Now when the unclean spirit has gone out of a man, it roams through waterless (dry, arid) places in search of rest, but it does not find it. Then it says, ‘I will return to my house from which I came.’ And when it arrives, it finds the place unoccupied, swept, and put in order.
It is imperative that you maintain a practice of relinquishing negativity and unclean spirits with the requisite digestion of holiness and the Lord's presence. You must fill that space with Him. This is accomplished through prayer, fasting, righteousness, worship and fellowship.
Create an environment that's not hospitable to the evil one. Play worship music in the background or the bible. You can find audio versions on YouTube. Subscribe to
Soakstream and let it bathe you and your children while you rest. You'll notice a difference.
Say this upon waking: I cancel all evil assignments against me and my children while sleeping and return them to their sender in Jesus name. Ask the Lord for protection while you rest and to dispatch ministering spirits to watch over you and your home. And ask Him to instruct you in the dream time for the day ahead.
The most effect time for prayer is between 12-3 AM. This is when most activity takes place. Don't ignore the dreams. Keep a notebook nearby and write them down. Pray against all evil intrusions. This is the period of ember months which begins at the Winter Solstice (usually December 21st) and ends on Spring (March 19th). Ember months often bring heightened challenges because the spiritual activity increases. Pastor Madeuke has a free
resource you may pray through during this season.
Don't be alarmed that I placed your children last. If you follow the order you'll tackle most impediments that affect them adversely. What follows are proclamations and additional coverings. The prayer marathons are posted weekly. If you make a habit of doing them upon finishing the others you'll see immense change in yourself and your circumstances.
You may supplement my suggestions with the following titles. These should be used in addition to the above. Not instead of it.
91 Day Decrees to Take Over the Year
Prayers for Protection
100 Day Prayers to Wake Up Your Lazarus
God Bless you.
~bella