Hello, I just recently joined on here and I wasn't sure where to go. I grew up in a Christian home but did not go to church, when I met my boyfriend he started bringing me to church with him which is Pentecostal. I loved it there for awhile but I've been there for about a year and a half now and I feel as if I'm constantly being judged. I raise my hands I speak in tongues, etc but no matter what I feel like I'm constantly under scrutiny by the leaders. I love Pentecostal trust me I have never felt so alive before, but tonight at church I went to the altar and I felt his presence like never before and some of the leaders made other leaders listen to me as If I fake everything I do and then continued to talk about how some are not right with the Lord. I'm frustrated because I love Jesus but everyone either thinks I'm crazy, I fake it or just plain don't like me. Should I leave my church? I love Pentecostal, I don't fake a thing but it's getting to the point where I'm losing the touch of God because I'm scared to act on the holy spirit because I don't want to be judged anymore. I know the saying goes if you feel judged the need to be at the altar too but the problem is the people I feel are judging me are the ones doing so. I came home from church tonight and cried. I have no idea what to do