I'm in my late 40's and I struggled with sexual immortality the majority of my life. I've been in recovery from a porn / sex addiction for over 2 years now. When I asked to be saved it was so I could live by a moral code and have pure thoughts.
In my small group from church we are studying 1 Thessalonians. In chapter 4 Paul discusses about being holy and staying away from sexual sin. The leader of my group wants to spend up to two meetings on a deeper dive of Christian sexual immortality. He wants us to prepare by pulling out as many instances in the bible that talks about sex.
Nobody in my group knows my story of addiction to porn and chat rooms. I left my other church because I shared too much information with the lead pastor and he incorporated into his sermon, he didn't use my name but my wife knew he was talking about me.
The majority of the people in my small group have been saved much longer than me and are devout Christians. I fear if I share too much about my past I will be judged and possibly cancelled out by my group that I look up to to for emotional and spiritual support.
This discussion is also very triggering for me especially when I'm trying to lead a life like one Jesus intended and think less of my past sexual immortality.
The facilitator of the group feels that this is a subject matter that doesn't get discuss much in the church and he feels obligated to touch on it. I feel this is something that should be done separate in a men's and women's bible study.
I'm at a crossroads here on how to handle this and could use some spiritual guidance on how to approach this.
In my small group from church we are studying 1 Thessalonians. In chapter 4 Paul discusses about being holy and staying away from sexual sin. The leader of my group wants to spend up to two meetings on a deeper dive of Christian sexual immortality. He wants us to prepare by pulling out as many instances in the bible that talks about sex.
Nobody in my group knows my story of addiction to porn and chat rooms. I left my other church because I shared too much information with the lead pastor and he incorporated into his sermon, he didn't use my name but my wife knew he was talking about me.
The majority of the people in my small group have been saved much longer than me and are devout Christians. I fear if I share too much about my past I will be judged and possibly cancelled out by my group that I look up to to for emotional and spiritual support.
This discussion is also very triggering for me especially when I'm trying to lead a life like one Jesus intended and think less of my past sexual immortality.
The facilitator of the group feels that this is a subject matter that doesn't get discuss much in the church and he feels obligated to touch on it. I feel this is something that should be done separate in a men's and women's bible study.
I'm at a crossroads here on how to handle this and could use some spiritual guidance on how to approach this.