- Jul 4, 2021
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Hi guys,
I’m sorry I have to come here and ask for help for this.
But the day before yesterday,I made a very shameful and bad decision,after what I thought was true repentance,I went back not to a pornography website,but a website that was medical but was bugged with an inappropriate pop up,to add no m-word was involved,And it has induced be with shiploads of anxiety.
And since then I’ve been having anxiety attacks,my mind telling me you secretly love pornography,when I tell myself I don’t.And it’s a mental struggle.let me be the first to say I absolutely resent it now, and hate how it keeps driving this wedge between me and Jesus,how it keeps giving me anxiety,I’m so angry at myself for peeking once.
Sometimes I get the anxiety that I’m already destined for hell and it scares me.I told Christ I repent of this disgusting material,because it only brings temporary pleasure and he brings eternal pleasure,and I think to myself it’s not worth it,it’ll never bring happiness.The situation I’m in now is pounding me with guilt and extreme hopelessness.
Could I ask,Now that I am free,how can I ask Christ for forgiveness,his Holy Spirit,and to be born again?,
I’m sorry I have to come here and ask for help for this.
But the day before yesterday,I made a very shameful and bad decision,after what I thought was true repentance,I went back not to a pornography website,but a website that was medical but was bugged with an inappropriate pop up,to add no m-word was involved,And it has induced be with shiploads of anxiety.
And since then I’ve been having anxiety attacks,my mind telling me you secretly love pornography,when I tell myself I don’t.And it’s a mental struggle.let me be the first to say I absolutely resent it now, and hate how it keeps driving this wedge between me and Jesus,how it keeps giving me anxiety,I’m so angry at myself for peeking once.
Sometimes I get the anxiety that I’m already destined for hell and it scares me.I told Christ I repent of this disgusting material,because it only brings temporary pleasure and he brings eternal pleasure,and I think to myself it’s not worth it,it’ll never bring happiness.The situation I’m in now is pounding me with guilt and extreme hopelessness.
Could I ask,Now that I am free,how can I ask Christ for forgiveness,his Holy Spirit,and to be born again?,
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