for the last 5 or so years, i have been praying on a daily basis for the day ahead, so that i feel safe or secure about food consumption, as in the past i had a different ritual in place before i went to university, but changed this in the hope that it would be better.
i have ocd intrusive thoughts which was brought about by depression in my first year of college in 2004, so bare with me as to where i needed to put this topic. recently the unwanted thoughts have become worse and have prevented me from doing a simple prayer because i do not want these in prayer, though i am not sure if god would forgive me for encountering these during prayer and for me to simply shrug them off and continue from where i stuttered what i was saying.
at the moment, im considering alternative attitudes towards my problem or ask the question "do i need to pray to eat and drink" or " can i eat and drink in the day, but still have a prayer afterwards". i also would like to know if there is a *physical* prayer i can do instead of a direct prayer, as i was advised by my university chaplaincy to be creative in prayer, so that theres better communication to god.
thankyou.
i have ocd intrusive thoughts which was brought about by depression in my first year of college in 2004, so bare with me as to where i needed to put this topic. recently the unwanted thoughts have become worse and have prevented me from doing a simple prayer because i do not want these in prayer, though i am not sure if god would forgive me for encountering these during prayer and for me to simply shrug them off and continue from where i stuttered what i was saying.
at the moment, im considering alternative attitudes towards my problem or ask the question "do i need to pray to eat and drink" or " can i eat and drink in the day, but still have a prayer afterwards". i also would like to know if there is a *physical* prayer i can do instead of a direct prayer, as i was advised by my university chaplaincy to be creative in prayer, so that theres better communication to god.
thankyou.
