So I have OCD. I am actually doing much better, but I do have some religious themes still. One of those themes is about praying to satan. My ocd will tell me "if you dont pray about X, then Y will happen". And naturally I finally broke down and prayed to satan for X. Which I hated doing, and would never do on my own tuition. Anyhow, a few days later X happened. Now im terrified, did satan really hear? Did I just damn myself forever? Ive apologized to God but I dont know if this is just a coincidence or not? Im so scared. I really dont know what to do.
I would like to add the X is a good thing, it was about this girl (ik how petty of me) who is also a Christian, and about her liking me. Basically to have her confess her feeling to me. Which I never would ask for either way, even from God. If a girl doesnt like me then she doesnt like me, I would never ask a deity to change that. God will supply a relationship when its time. I just dont know if this is from God or Satan now.
I would like to add the X is a good thing, it was about this girl (ik how petty of me) who is also a Christian, and about her liking me. Basically to have her confess her feeling to me. Which I never would ask for either way, even from God. If a girl doesnt like me then she doesnt like me, I would never ask a deity to change that. God will supply a relationship when its time. I just dont know if this is from God or Satan now.