- Dec 13, 2015
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So I was reading online a "helpful" guide this morning about ending flashbacks. Not saying they're not helpful for a lot of people but they definitely aren't for me. 1. It assumed that our childhood trauma ended in the past and in our childhood. My childhood trauma may be finally over in my late adult years but my Traumz lives and continues on with my wife. It will never be over. I will never not constantly be on alert, petrified to death that something is going to happen. My dog is the same way, traumatized and always terrified and on alert, which, doesn't help with my anxiety.
It will never be over, I went to see my Elder yestersay afternoong and he told me the truth that Jesus and God told us to never be afraid and that God is always with us.
Cool, but that does nothing in making me feel better and helping me heal from over 30 years of daily trauma. I thought I was alone but apparently this is more common than I think. Even among Christians. So I'm not as much as a failure to Jesus as I thought. I'm just getting sick of being petrified and feeling like I'm going to die every second of everyday. You try every treatment and medication out there in hopes of relief but, the truth is no relief is out there. I have to be completely traumatized for my whole life and. This sucks. I hate so much not being what Jesus and tells me to be. It's killing me inside.
It will never be over, I went to see my Elder yestersay afternoong and he told me the truth that Jesus and God told us to never be afraid and that God is always with us.
Cool, but that does nothing in making me feel better and helping me heal from over 30 years of daily trauma. I thought I was alone but apparently this is more common than I think. Even among Christians. So I'm not as much as a failure to Jesus as I thought. I'm just getting sick of being petrified and feeling like I'm going to die every second of everyday. You try every treatment and medication out there in hopes of relief but, the truth is no relief is out there. I have to be completely traumatized for my whole life and. This sucks. I hate so much not being what Jesus and tells me to be. It's killing me inside.