- Dec 29, 2021
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I spend hours every day on the internet and I don’t like to be separated from it. When I am, I get very grumpy and moody and it causes some problems with my relationships with my family, especially my sister who I am normally very close to. I realize that part of the reason I like talking to people on the internet is because they actually talk to me (my friends irl don’t answer my texts) and I can talk to people who share similar interests (my family doesn’t have an interest in the things I’m interested in). Also, I only see the good side of people on the internet. They can act nice when they use social media, but no one is perfect and we all have a dark side, the part of us that will die along with our bodies when we go to heaven. I don’t see this side of people on the internet, but I do see that side of my family. One of my sisters has said that she didn’t love anyone in the family and another will sometimes fly into a rage and say she’ll murder everyone.
When I’m not on the internet, I’m daydreaming. (I didn’t know where to post about Maladaptive Daydreaming, I’m assuming I do it here because it’s like an addiction to daydreaming???) I spend hours a day daydreaming and I can’t stop thinking about my imaginary characters, storylines, and places. I repeat the same scenes in my head over and over again. Scenes of intense emotion that will make me smile or cry in real life. These can either be scenes where something dramatic happens, or it could be a more intimate scene. I’ve never even dated someone before irl, but I can’t stop replaying sexual scenes in my head, and I can feel what it’s like, even though I’ve never experienced it irl. It’s not the kind of thoughts I want in my head, especially when I think about it obsessively while I’m supposed to be doing school or studying the Bible. It also has pushed me away from my family, because I can control my imaginary characters personalities. They will never hurt me or do anything I don’t like unless I want them to (they get brainwashed sometimes in my sci fi world, and it’s not their fault) I can’t control my family.
if you read all this, thank you. Please tell me if you have any idea of how to help or if you’re going through something similar.
TYSM,
Vesper
When I’m not on the internet, I’m daydreaming. (I didn’t know where to post about Maladaptive Daydreaming, I’m assuming I do it here because it’s like an addiction to daydreaming???) I spend hours a day daydreaming and I can’t stop thinking about my imaginary characters, storylines, and places. I repeat the same scenes in my head over and over again. Scenes of intense emotion that will make me smile or cry in real life. These can either be scenes where something dramatic happens, or it could be a more intimate scene. I’ve never even dated someone before irl, but I can’t stop replaying sexual scenes in my head, and I can feel what it’s like, even though I’ve never experienced it irl. It’s not the kind of thoughts I want in my head, especially when I think about it obsessively while I’m supposed to be doing school or studying the Bible. It also has pushed me away from my family, because I can control my imaginary characters personalities. They will never hurt me or do anything I don’t like unless I want them to (they get brainwashed sometimes in my sci fi world, and it’s not their fault) I can’t control my family.
if you read all this, thank you. Please tell me if you have any idea of how to help or if you’re going through something similar.
TYSM,
Vesper